Saturday, April 19, 2008 . 2:02 PM
How am i supposed to feel when my mom, in all her openness tell my dad to please get his arse back to Kuching?
For good?
She told me he would only be there for a few months for a try out, to see if this plans work out.
In short, she plans to get rid of my dad for good.
Once he boards the plane and go back to Kuching, there would be it. I don't see any other chances of him coming back anymore.
How am i, as a daughter meant to feel, when i witness my dad 's downcast expression and his lonely silhouette in the living room.
To my mom, it would b good riddance. It would meant a new start for her life.
To my dad, he's just going back to wait for the inevitable D.
What can i daughter say now?
For the benefit of my mom and her illness, should i support her decision?
Which children would bear to dump their ill fathers in some faraway land? Self-centered ones maybe.
But i'm not ready to do that. I'm not freaking one to do that.
I'm all prepared to take care of my dad as long as he lives.
No i don't wan to agree and i don't have to support this stupid decision.
They are just plain selfish.
Why do i have to agree to whatever my aunts have to say? WHY?!
Why are things always so out of my control! He's my dad for goodness sake!
When i questioned my mom why it has to be like this, she questioned me back,' Do you have the ability and means to take care of your dad?'
Do i? Can i?
I can't. But it doesn't mean i have to dump him away to the hands of my aunts'. How can i trust them after all that they had failed to do what they promised they would in the past.
Why does a daughter have to be separated from her dad? I aldy grew up with a lack of fatherly love and presence in my life. Why cant i not have a little bit of it now?
How am i going to see my dad in the future?
How much time does he has left in this world?
How much..............
I just spoke to him. He said he's going back to kuching..for good. He doesn't wan to come back anymore. I'm sure it's not his own decision, he is making this decision only becos there are no other solutions....
I can't even have the means and ability to keep my dad here with me...........
I hate all of them. Everyone who has to play a freaking part in this.
Why does it have to be like this.... i don't want it to be like this.
I don't wan to lose my dad.
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