Saturday, October 25, 2003 . 1:57 AM
~~DEEPAVALI~~
I stayed home the whole day. Yicai has got duty in the camp so he has to book in and stay in till tomoro noon. I don feel like going out either so stay home lor enjoy my own time. In the morning i was awaken by my mom at 7.30am ...cos one of my hamster Bearbear went missing! She climbed out of the cage somehow. And i was soooo tired! We spent an hr+ looking for her until we found her sleeping in a corner squeezed b/w all the rubbish that is in my bro's room. My mom was so happy to find her back ..she loves that hamster the most. I was glad i found her...her paws were all blacken with dirt. Aww poor thing! And i went back to sleep of cos.
I really don't know if i shd carry on incubating the eggs. The embryo might b aldy dead leh...aiyah so sad..even if they hatch successfully i oso donoe wat to do with them but i'll b v excited abt the hatching..
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Thursday, October 23, 2003 . 8:27 PM
Today's pract we had our hands on live chick embryos! It's really quite cool except that the embryo is dead after we play with it lar...we got the yolk out and took out the 2day old embryo and look under the microscope and the heart is still pumping really very cute actually. But it's sad that its dead aldy. BTW, the eggs we r eating are the unfertilised eggs without embryos...the ones with embryos are the fertilised ones of cos( fertilised internally) Didn't know chickens mate :p So y do chickens still lay eggs since they r unfertilised? err..think in terms of females ovulating then......that sounds quite gross isn't it? -_- oh well...anyway i took 2 fertilised eggs from the lab and brought it home to incubate. My prof says just put it under the lamp to make it ard 37 degree celsius for 21 days.....my mom was very excited when i brought 2 eggs home ...but now she thinks it's too mafan liao and the electricity bills! I don even know whether the incubation is at the correct temp etc. Mayb it woudn't even hatch..so wat if it hatch? then wat am i going to do with the chicks? hai difficult choices to make!
I think my CA is goner liao. hai~~
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Wednesday, October 22, 2003 . 4:10 PM
This is the photo taken from HV swensen during xiaoying's bday :) the NEMO frame is made by the swensen crew very cute rite hahaa...(left) Jennifer,Qingli me and Xiaoying. My " gang" in sch... Tis sem's timetable has made it possible that we stick together for quite long periods of time esp for lunch so we grew pretty close. I'm really happy to have thsi grp of frens in sch, i always tot that i'll grad with no close frens..that's pretty sad :(
I've got CA tomoro morning but i haven't finished studying...oh no i think i'm going to die liao lor.. still had to go tuition just now..very sian lor i can't wait for him to finish his exams and i don have to go anymore! Long day tomoro somemore..after tomoro i'll b so happy...
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Tuesday, October 21, 2003 . 5:16 PM
I revamped the blog layout today when i'm SUPPOSED to b studying for my microB test on thurs O i'm so dead!!! I argued with my mom last nite cos she was being really unreasonable! Yicai bought mi icecream and i went to her and asked if she wans any...she said no. And i told her this icecream v ex one leh.....and she said " wat's so big deal abt that? icecream are all ex ..." (*^$# When i heard that i got quite pissed. I mean i'm onli telling her that the icecream is nice cos it's ex..shd try it...and she said something so unreasonable like she's out to attack mi and yicai ...i think she was just having a really bad mood last nite lar cos she's scolding my dad again...all the naggings...v fan.. |
Monday, October 20, 2003 . 11:19 PM
I studied in school today! haha..so " hardworking"..we went to central (arts) library n checked out the new 6th level studying area. WOW it's really v nice, and they have seperate rooms for discussion purposes..just felt that it's really conducive to study. I prob would be hanging ard there during this period of time. And arts is really THE place to meet pple man. I met some of my ex jc frens today, shujuan, june, maureen, jianzhong( jw's fren actually) and yonglun. Quite happy :) i've been hocked to friendster recently. haha i never understood y it's such an IN thing but yeah it's really fun actually. I really got to see pple that i've not been keeping in contact for a long time and how small S'pore can b...like everyone seemed to b connected to someone else. Shd try it out yeah..eh bernice...wat's ur email? |
Sunday, October 19, 2003 . 10:10 PM
I went to church alone today..i've no idea wat happened to hsiaolin ( eh gal wat happened to u man..)Foong sim( my ex sunday sch tcher) actually msged mi to ask if i'm going for service today that was quite surpising. I sat with her during the service and during the service i saw her wrapping something with a paper after which she handed the paper to mi after when the service ended. I tot it's some encouraging letter. But when i opened up the paper like 30 mins later i found $300 in it and scribbled on the paper was " this is a little something for you by us and always trust God that He would provide, Jehovah Jireh, by Foongsim and lionel" I was really shocked man! I'm really really very touched by their genoriosity towards my family. I know they do not earn alot as well cos Lionel is in full-time ministry. So i feel v touched by their actions and their love for me and my family and i felt really bad taking their money. I've decided to return them the money cos my family is not in such a bad state yet anyway. They r really such sweet pple, willing to go all the way to help out us.
Psalm 119:105
"Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path."
Chorus
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path.
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet,
And a light unto my path.
When I feel afraid,
Think I've lost my way,
Still You're there, right beside me.
Nothing will I fear,
As long as You are near.
Please, be near me to the end
Chorus
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path.
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet,
And a light unto my path.
I will not forget
Your love for me and yet,
My heart forever is wandering.
Jesus be my guide,
And hold me to Your side,
And I'll love You to the end.
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~some self evaluation~
I think i'm a super fickle- minded person.And i'm getting more n more emotional, and indecisive. I wan this and i wan that...but i can't have them both so i must choose. But if i choose A over B which i know is for the better then i have to give up A and i'm unhappy abt it! even though i know i shd give up A so that i could do B ...i bet u all have no idea wat i'm toking abt isn't it...ANYWAY! i've made up my mind. I'm gonna be decisive! i'm not gona drag my feet over stuffs anymore. if i wan to do A i do A...if i wan to do B i do B. ANd i realised that i've got an anger problem. I can't control my anger sensibly when i'm super angry, even to the pt that i would swear. Gosh i was never like that...and i'm gonna stop doing all these. I must learn how to control my own tempers.....
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Friday, October 17, 2003 . 10:48 PM
During lunch today, we were chitchatting in the science canteen. And then xiaoying and jennifer talked about spiritual stuffs.. ghosts, evil spirits and stuffs. And i told them that hsiaolin's guyfren has the third eye and could see stuffs. So jennifer said he's not supposed to see all these. You should pray for him. I agreed. From the bible, we know that after a person die there's onli 2 places he/she could go; heaven or hell. SO there shdn't be any wandering spirits on earth ( like how chinese love to protray that kinda things in shows) So i donoe wat those pple see when they see "stuffs" There is the devil, and his evil spirits. And evil spirits can take the form of anything. So i think "stuffs" that he saw r prob evil spirits not "dead pple". I have no idea if u pple know wat i'm toking abt now...hmm..
Anyway, mediums, future tellers etc, the reason they know the "future" is cos the willingly ( and happily i supposed) allow the evil spirits from the devil to possess them. Hey the devil knows everything ok...and he knows the bible more than u and mi...he knows our characters and personalities even! So y can't he predict the future?And besides even if the thing is not supposed to happen, he prob could make it happen in such a way that u think the predicitions came true? And mediums....check out 1 samuel chapter 28...it talks about Saul contacting the medium asking her to summon the spirit of samuel. And the medium did...except that she was shocked and astounded to actually summoned the real spirit of samuel. That means she expected to summon an evil spirit which would take the image of samuel and not the REAL samuel..u get wat i mean? SO evil spirits can take the form of anything...don be decieved by all these. All these r just my tots ...it doesn't mean that i'm right but one thing is certain...there's onli heaven and hell where the dead could go. Trust God and know that everything is under His control. OK relax...i think the topic is too solemm? sorrie abt it guys haha..
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Thursday, October 16, 2003 . 7:38 PM
"You are beautiful, but you are empty. One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you--the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose." - The Little Prince" by Antoine de Saint Exupéry. |
Tuesday, October 14, 2003 . 4:17 PM
~Last minute work~
I spent the whole noon yesterday in the science library in sch zapping textbks..for my exams lar of cos. And my fren( yongzhi) said something like this," pple zap bks in the beginning of the sem, u zap at the end.." &^$@ (* well at least i made an effort to zap now...I'm setting my mind on starting my studying from this week onwards(i hope so) Then yesterday i realised that i have a lab report due this thurs? And 2 more due on 30th..and a paper( grp work) that's supposedly to b handed up to the compiled by next fri...and a CA next thurs!!!
I'm gonna go mad.....
Last nite, Enzheng told mi that Julian sms him and told him that i reminded him of Jodie Foster...now wat's that supposed to mean?!
Gtg do my paper now ..
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Sunday, October 12, 2003 . 3:21 PM
I found this song really nice so i tot i would put the lyrics here to constantly remind myself that God is calling us to help Him with His kingdom, He's waiting for us to say yes we would go.
I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard My people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.
I who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear My light to them?
Whom shall I send?
Chorus:
Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.
I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have born my peoples pain.
I have wept for love of them, They turn away.
I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak My word to them,
Whom shall I send?
(Chorus)
I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will tend the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them,
My hand will save
Finest bread I will provide,
Till their hearts be satisfied.
I will give My life to them,
Whom shall I send?
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Saturday, October 11, 2003 . 2:21 AM
Today was xiaoying's bday! I bought her a lamp and made her a bracelet myself. She said the lamp was unique..don't know if tht means she likes it? Anyway she said she loved the presents and she treated us to swensen. :) great lunch! anyway today we were all really tired cos we slept late to rush a lab report due today. I think i slept at 4 am and woke up at 7am. That was it. I was zombie-liked for the rest of the day haha. We had a pretty interesting practical yesterday ( rather boring one too...) looking at models of foetus development and watched a video on foets developement and showed the birth of the baby. Uncensored...so u could really see everything!(quite gross..) so we were discussing abt mothers, giving birth, twins etc today over lunch hahaa
Reached home and slept all the way till 8pm.
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Tuesday, October 07, 2003 . 10:29 PM
~ How do i loathe thee?
Let me count the ways ~
Damn i had a quarrel with yicai again. I feel really sian and down today. I don wanna do anything. Don't wanna be nice, don wanna be sweet...it's just some small things! y must he always quarrel with me? Mayb he asked for too much..im not able to provide.
I hate to leave things unsettled. I hate it more that we have to quarrel. As if i don have enuff troubles? yeah but my troubles can't be compared to his. Ha!
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~~~MoNdAy BlUeS~~~
I've nv really liked writing all my thoughts out for everyone to see...i feel too exposed :p I like being mysterious ya know ...there you go. Anyway, this is really a gd way to keep my frens updated with wat's happening to me ( my pretty boring life) I mean i don get to see all of you often hai~~ And hsiaolin has made me such a wonderful and romantic site, i must definetely try it thing out. Thanks Couzin, that's really sweet of you :)
TODAY! Monday....hai today i had a CA in the morning. The module is "fundamental pharmacology". yeah i know..looking at the name of the module aldy puts you off. It's abt drug interactions and wat it does to your body systems etc ... There was really alot of things to memorise for the CA! argh! and all the drugs's names! my gosh...i had a really bad headache from memorising them last nite...and of cos when it came to testing my memory tis morning, i almost died from my throbbing headaches...i'm REAL glad it's over..really...But the headaches continued to haunt me even till now...hai..
And it was raining the whole noon so i was stuck in sch and icouldn't go home. when i finally reached home n wanting everything just to sleep...i realised the water bottle of my hamster cage somehow leaked and the whole cage was soaking wet...i had to change all the mood shavings n stuffs..I wasn't too happy abt how my day had turned out of cos..i wanted to go holland V to get a present for xiaoying ( bday this fri) but i was so tired i went to nap instead. Mayb tomoro i'll go get it. But i have to go down to CPF tomoro to settle some stuffs, and i'm not looking forward to it. I hate to do this kind of " adult" business thingie...
I have to go and ask them when are they gonna approve our claims and allow us to stop paying for the loan of the house...and y is my dad not covered under DPS...and my mom's medishield....argh..SEE??? SIAN rite? i hate to b thrown into the " adult world" ...i don have a choice..i have to go settle them.
I didnt' get to meet up or even tok to yicai today. He had to tuition a kid after his work, and he had a shitty day according to him. And he also has a horrible headache...so...we kinda u know unhappy with each other abit...he felt neglected and i felt neglected too! aiyah...i don really wan to be complaining abt my love life here...anyway he took panadol n went to sleep...and here i am writing abt my day...
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Monday, October 06, 2003 . 1:43 AM
dEarest Cousin.. this is a gift to u.. in a way to thank u for always being there when I needed to talk to someone and also at the same time to know what u always do when I don't hear from u.. so update it often k?! |
