Monday, January 31, 2005 . 3:31 PM

Thursday, January 27, 2005 . 10:22 AM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005 . 9:41 AM

Saturday, January 22, 2005 . 3:46 PM

I think depression kinda left me ever since THE period came on Thurs. When i looked back at the past 2-3 weeks or so, the slow onset of depression and the full blast, i remembered how horrible i felt. It was like a constant struggle to keep myself sane bcos most of the time i felt like i wanna scream or tear my hair out. I felt so vexed so uncomfortable so irritated that every single small thing pissed mi off. To add that on, really hardly anyone understands how difficult it is to sit there and achieve nothing everyday. I'm really not that sort of person lor. I need to feel that i'm useful at least. And i think everyone needs to feel useful. That's wat we do isn't it? If i give ur all the chance to sit infront of ur pc everyday sooner or later u gonna loathe this kind of life. I don mind working...neither do i wan a stressful work. But bumming ard everyday is horrible. That's all i wanna say. It's so wasting my time. Mayb this job aint for me. Or mayb things would get betta. Anyway i'm feeling much betta now that Period has come. SO i think my depression had to do with more of biological than psychological watever. On thurs we had our staff lunch at mandarin hotel. Had buffet not too bad cos it's free. After that we were free to go home or do watever we want. But 2 of my colleagues had to go back to nus to carry on with their research. That's research life man. Sux...ok onli i think it sux. Aparently they are used to living this sort of life. So after that i met yicai up(he still got his mc) and shopped and shopped. Boy we were so happy. OK at least i was happier. My cramps came and then i refused to go home and rest. I was so agitated that hey finally i get a gd chance to shop my cramps were preventing me?!?! NOOOO i ate one panadol and carried on. Slowly tho. I got most of the things on my list. So i don think i would b shopping much, mayb get more tops that's all...Rem friday nite i was supposed to go for the bbq that i so dreaded? Well i called the danish lady and told her i'm having cramps so i won't b going. It was a white lie. But i did feel qutie uncomfy. I think panadol does have some side effects huh. I don think i'll ever eat panadol for period cramps anymore. It sux. I supsect it's making mi uncomfy for 2 days when usually after the 1st day everyday is a breeze. Panadol sux..and it's PANADOL MENSTRUAL somemore. Watever. OK yeah betta days ahead till the next pms come.  

One of the T-shirts Yicai got. Graniph...very ex. I won't disclose how much it cost cos ur prob think it's crazy spending so much on a shirt, like i did. But this one i picked it for him, the fitting is great so im beginning to think that this brand is not bad. Plus u def won't see another guy on teh street wearing the same design. 

Mos burger at JP last nite. With jen and qingli. Met up shopped abit chat abit shopped abit.... 

One day after work, boredom got to me and i took pics of myself behind Yicai's blk but onli one turned out nice. 

Thursday, January 20, 2005 . 1:44 PM

Wednesday, January 19, 2005 . 4:55 PM

Tuesday, January 18, 2005 . 2:44 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005 . 9:53 PM

Bloody hell. I took so much effort last nite to put all these photos up. ANd typed so much but the rest came out except for these 2 pics! I'm damn irritated. Btw yicai has been discharged yest morning and i've been trying to say that last nite. And i got no work today cos i took off. Hv to clear the 2 offs by this month. And now Nan Hua sec sch is having a bloody gd time with their campfire gathering shit that they have to use microphones to announce to the whole world of their party. Irritating the shit out of me. Ok it's 10pm soon. I'm gonna call the cops to silence these lambs. 

Aww..my rabbit pillow 

Ugly pic. 

Oh lookie! He's licking mi...between my nose and mouth, not my lips mind u. haha..hmm he's quite fat huh...so big sized...... 

My wonderful $1 thai coconuts that i've been indulging in these days. Found in clementi's pasar malam near ntuc. Check them out .They are juicy, so sweet and concentrated. Wah... 

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 . 9:09 PM

'I think i juz witnessed a lunar eclipse.' That was my msn nick. I know this pic isn't clear. But i saw this big round moon which seemed to b covered up almost to the bottom, leaving a small crescent. But you could see the faint light of the part of the moon being covered. I Think i'm one of the luckiest person alive now having seen the lunar eclipse, at least i get to catch it b4 it completely got covered up. By the time i got home from NUH and post this nick up, my frens doesn't believe mi !!!! They all think i'm talking nonsense. How can the papers not write abt it etc??! EH come on i saw it?!?! Wat phenomenum was that then?! Ok now probably u wait like 5 hrs from now to see the moon reemerge k? Or wait another 10 more yrs to catch a lunar eclipse .. i can die a happy person now :) wow. And the sky is so clear (that's y i insisted the moon is not covered by clouds..) and the stars are out. Imagine in singapore, where the whole country is so brightly lit up u can see quite a no of stuffs. It's like so cool man. Usually not that much of stars. Hey i know lots abt the moon. I've observed it so long over such a long period of time. I know how the moon looks like at different time of the month. Y can't anyone believe me. Until my wonder M'sia fren came online and said yeah i'm rite. Cos he had seen one in his childhood and it's like this. SEE SEEEEEEEE :) M'sians are wise. HEE...ok shoot me. 

Tuesday, January 11, 2005 . 10:16 PM

The newest and latest update on yicai is that the docs have no clue of wat caused him to b so sick. 1st was UTI, 2nd was dengue 3rd is unknown. Wat is this man!! NUH...hai..how can u disappoint us like that?! Yeah..jus kinda worried even tho he's like stabilised but yet he had fever again today. Hopefully nothing serious lor.....and then i can finally breathe the air of relief. 

Monday, January 10, 2005 . 2:42 PM

Thursday, January 06, 2005 . 1:22 PM

Wat the hell is this beautiful picture??! It's ahemm...a photo that i've captured from the microscope. Immunofluoresence signal of erm..isit CD8 (i think so..) in spleen cells. Bcos the antibody we used is..i think anti CD8..so the green signals are all CD8 while the blue ones are nucleus of cells.I'm so proud of my 1st ever sucessful immunoflorescent staining. :p

Enuff said abt the pic. Last nite i found some breath of life in my life. I met up with waitat, this crazy fellow who used to b my senior. Muz get to meet him in real life to know how unique this creation is...anyway, i begged him to help mi buy a 256mb mmc card for my beloved 7610, so that i can have like 60 songs in my hp and prob 1000 pics and watever crap there is to put in. He was to pass mi the card last nite. Cost $49.00. So we met up, crapped alittle and then he asked if i wanna keep the plastic bag. I said no..and ok we walked and there were chaos all over cos clementi central is having pasar malam now, he threw away the plastic bag with the receipt in it. We got some pasar malam snacks. Went to a nearby kopitiam sat down ate rojak tok crap more. And then i took out the card, attemped to fit into my hp but obviously the bloody card is like twice the size of the mmc slot. HE got the wrong size!! Cos his fren's hp used this big one..but mine is the reduced size one but i tot he knew who knows he didn't know! And rewind alittle.....we threw away the receipt. So we were whining n whining...even went to the dustbinS(cos he couldn't rem which one he threw) and attempted feebly to see if we could spot THAT plastic bag in the midst of all the other smiliar(actually they all look the same) plastic bags n all that junk food..yux...so there..i made him promise to go back to sim lim TODAY and beg the person to change that card. :(

Wat a sway day. I think he oso very sway. Y were we so stupid to throw away that plastic bag!! argh! ANyway, we parted. ANd then a call from Aaron saying he and the others are at clementi central. WOW so qiao. So i went over and look for them at S-11 kopitiam. WHo knows man..stayed till 12pm then he sent us home. Was great spending time with them. It's like that old familar feeling as if i;m back in AIA and almost 4got abt being stuck in a windowless lab. So yeah some breath of life last nite. Was soo goddamn tired?! I planned to actually go home n rest after meeting waitat cos i could barely keep myself awake at work aldy...but then the price to pay for some fun. Absolutely exhausted. Muz def rest early tonite!! Tomoro still going to xiaohui's place after work for some workout in the gym...............

I'm missing the food at AV(alexandra village..near AIA) market...oh man the food....salivating....

Anyway i heard if u don get enuff sunlight u fall sick easily? Or if u don get sunlight for a long time u might die? I think it's abit exaggerated. But then i could prove that getting no sunlight or SEEING no sunlight makes u feel sick and depressed. ANd i've got sick twice aldy since i came to this WINDOWLESS pit of a lab. I need my sun. I need my sunshine. I need vit D!!!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005 . 9:38 AM

Monday, January 03, 2005 . 2:56 PM

Sunday, January 02, 2005 . 1:12 AM

New yr's eve. No need to work cos it happened that 31st dec is NUS uni day or some sort. I don care as long as i don need to work. Went out with Deying to go shoipping in the day. But in the end didn't buy anything....and i'm really not happie abt that. But anyway had a great time catching up with her. Evening met Yicai for countdown. Later on T-lum(my sec classmate) his fren joined us. We were like walking ard Esplanade for at least 30 mins b4 we settled down in a restaurant bar but we got to sit outdoor since everywhere was aldy fully booked. Cold man....since it juz rained and we were hoping it wouldn't rain again. NOthing big and happening...juz 3 of us drinkning and chatting. So i think we were really lucky to have a place to sit and drink while the rest of pple were juz standing and bumming ard donoe doing wat...cos it was really boring. We gez everyone was gathering in esplanade cos they still tot there's fireworks but yicai told us b4hand that it was cancelled aldy...cos of the tsunami incident, to b sensitive of cos. Erm that's Magarita cocktail in the pic. T-lum left b4 teh countdown to join his other frens. So back to the 2 of us...it's like new yr was so sian...i donoe y..mayb cos we are aldy so grown up? Everyone has their own plans? Some pple wanna be at home..to avoid the crowd altogether, some wanna spend it with family, some wanna spend it with their gfs or bfs and then it makes it really difficult for so many couples to come together as a grp to celebrate...u get wat i mean? It's like...where were the wild times?!?! Tho actually i'm not really looking for a wild wild party but for a warm gathering of frens etc..but sadly speaking i don have a fix large grp of frens. I got different cliques..n then everyone is doing their own stuffs...In the past, i used to go to those super bloody crowded countdown parties at suntec etc..or clubbing..or parties? Now it's like...argh..so sian...warm gatherings pls!!! How was 2004 for everyone? Yicai thinks it's over in a flash...but i tink 2004 is a really long yr for me. The yr where i graduated with a degree. The yr things changed for me. The turning pt of wat i would term adulthood? Yr 3 of my uni life seemed so damn far away. It's as if i've graduated for 2-3 yrs aldy! More than half a yr ago i was still bumming, as a bad student,zaoing sch, last min studying. Wat a life!! How i miss those days! If onli this 1 mth + of working in nus is a nightmare or something, and i can wake up from this shit soon and discover wat a relief i'm still a student!! I know this job ain't bad...it's actually almost perfect. But too bad lar. God is pretty fair sometimes. Like i got such a gd job, i can't click with the pple. Like i got such a gd job i don get high pay but that aint such of a prob now lar. 2004....i can't rem much of it actually. Oh and i got my Angel hee. I wonder wat 2005 would bring. 2004 wasn't exactly a very gd yr for me. Last min studying really stressed mi out. Family problems...when my parents decided to come back from kuching for good..everything, the dynamics changed. Evrything changed. Financial problems. The nagging irritating persistent social pressure that pple gave us, the bunch-of-grads-who's-still-bumming-ard.Trying to cope with the need to change my mindset and attitude towards entering the workforce. And then..we went to Bangkok, could b considered my graduation trip, which was really enjoyable. Would love to go back there again. And recently the KL trip? I think i've got enuff of hols this yr aldy. Hopefully 2005 would b a betta yr. MOre clothes more shoes more money betta spiritual life more life more frens more activities less hot more cold less rain more peace less worries more blessings I wish all of u my frens a very blessed yr ahead. May God bless ur abundantly. Stay healthy,eat less fatty food or else ur blood vessels gona clot up soon, stay beautiful, sleep earlier,use more wrinkle-busting cream cos we are 1 yr older!! Happy new yr frens! 

Wat's ur new yr resolutionssssss??????? 

B4 meeting T-lum for drinking..1st time he's smiling in pics.....................................! 

A Turkish restaurant at Suntec's sky garden :) 

Deying's gd recommendation of a the Turkish dessert called....er...ok i 4got..it looks out of this world but it's really nice. So sweet...it makes u happie eating it. And 2 turkish tea. Nice.
 

Hmm.. 

On thurs, i met up with Andrew, my AIA ex temp colleague. Supposed to meet up with more pple but all of them were complaining they were very tired etc blah blah blah cut the story short in the end onli the 2 of us ended up meeting each other. So we walked ard Hv..and then came to this pretty new 2 storey cafe situated along the stretch of shops where BODY SHOP is? I can't rem the name of the shop but's got bright pink neon lights of the cafe's name on the 2nd floor's glass window. The 2nd storey is pretty cool cos u get to sit on the floor with cushions and those seats where u can lay agaisnt the wall, they provide u with big red cushions..plus u remove ur shoes b4 u step onto the platforms...so it's pretty comfy and all..the drinks they selling are tea-based. It's like fruity drinks mixed with all kinds of tea..oolong..earl gray..watever...and they got finger foods etc..can check out that place. :)  

At the COSY cafe. Andrew insisted that we both wear specs to take pic......so toot... 

Angel loves to jump up to my bed in the morning when i preparing to go to work. And he likes to nua on the bed with me..cute eh