Monday, March 24, 2008 . 9:27 PM
I know i've disappeared for like a month. Not very faithful to my blog nowadays. Kinda have too many things going on in my life that i don't find the time nor need to blog.
This whole month, i feel an immense joy in my life. My life is not a bed of roses of cos, but the amazing thing is, i still feel the joy no matter how bad things are.
I think i'm beginning to understand what God meant by being joyful in him no matter what. I think i understand why some men in the bible can b so joyful, rejoicing even when faced with life most difficult situations.
I feel contented and very satisfied with my life. That's cos i'm relying on God's strength and wisdom to go through my days.
March is a sterssful month for me. It was the period of time that i began to realise what i have to do and achieve in order for my sup to allow mi to become a CRA. And for the very 1st time in my life since donkey years, that i actually start working hard for what i want. In the past, i'm alawys pretty much laid back. I believe that if it's meant to be, God will give it to me. There's no point working too hard for something that isn't worth it. But of cos God says you reap what you sow as well. But anyway, that was my attitude. Nothing is worth working for except my family and anything that contributes to treasures in heaven isn't it? But for the 1st time, i started working hard! I started becoming proactive, more vocal, firm. And i am very contented and satisfied with what i'm doing to the point that i don't mind staying late for work.
I can see myself changing, just in 6 months. This job had challenged me in many ways. My colleagues had been wonderful and helpful. And i'm very thankful really. I count my blessings. I thank God that i am able to find favor with my sup and colleagues, that they are so willing to help and teach me. And i also thank God that the environment is so geared towards western way of doing things, that it really make things so much easier and encourages growth.
With that, i'm thankful. And with that, i'm deeply grateful towards what God had done. Now, i have to continue working hard to prove my worth.
With that, i'm beginning to not feel so satisfied with dance. That's cos i haven't been dancing for 2 weeks. And that seemed like a really long time. Till i've lost touched. I feel distanced from it.
I feel like work has took over my life too much. And the thing is...i'm not complaining about it! I don't mind having no life!
I've been enjoying myself actually. Now that Albert works nearby and been working late, we meet up for late dinners quite often. And i'm contented. This is much better than just spending one day to go patuo. Over the weekends, we always ended up cleaning or painting his new room. It's pure hard work but at least we are doing them together.
And church. It has been wonderful. Our group has grown so close to each other that i actually miss and think of them sometimes. These two weeks, we had met up so often. 1st met up at Sarah's home to dye the Easter eggs. The next day, we went to distribute the eggs together to the residents of the blk near our church. It's a really nice experience to be able to get involved with things together as a group. It does pull us together and we build each other up. It's amazing how a group with a common goal can build each other up. We all seek to just spread love to the residents and also to each other in the grp. I've seen pple stood out and take on roles and offered their services. Everyone just played a part. And somehow it all worked!
Then we met up for Good Friday service. And were supposed to go Pulau Ubin after that. But then it started raining, so we went to Brian's office, as his place is catered for the kids around the neighbourhood, the office had lots of games. So there we spent our good friday with each other the whole noon. Sunday's Easter service was terribly early at 8am. To my surprise, almost the whole group turned up. After that we went to have breakfast at the market near Holland Village.
Well....really contented. Really joyful.
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