Monday, February 18, 2008 . 10:44 PM
Let me share a part of my life with you guys.
Yesterday, which was a Sunday. I had my usual sunday of Church service and bible study. But since 3rd Feb, our whole church has embarked on these 40 days of community by Rick Warren. Yeah the guy who wrote Purpose Driven Life. 40 days. Just nice and in time for Lent.
So for something that's more out of the usual, we committed ourselves, our group to serving a block near our church, to bless the residents. Let them know that Jesus could walk out of a church building and into their lives. So yesterday, after our whole day of church, we packed some oranges that we bought ourselves into small little red auspicious bags to distribute to the residents. We had no car, no trolleys, we just carried everything by hand and walked to the block.
To tell the truth, the day didn't start off well for me. I've been suffering under the pains of pms, as in my legs had been wobbly and i couldn't stand for 5 mins without sitting down. It's been going on for like a week. If you ask me if i felt like going up and down a 10 storey building talking to residents, i can tell you...i rather want to sit down lar. And my group, we have a total of 10 pple. But gez what? For all kinds of reasons, only 6 of us turned up. One chinese PRC signed up to join our gathering so we included him in the activity. And then another cell grp member turned up. Hence we have 8. BEfore that, it kinda looked pathetic. We could easily have said let's just postponed it to next week when more pple are around or i could have gone home bcos i was really not feeling very well.
The spirit is feeling but the flesh is indeed very weak. Or the spiritual warfare is high. God intends something good to be done, the devil would make sure it is not easily done.
As i was pondering over how things look pathetic and how in pain i was, i was convicted that we MUST do it today. There may be someone waiting for us there, amongst the units. How do we know? Only God knows. If God intends to reach out to someone, just someone, He wouldn't mind sending 8 of us there just to help. WE didnt' go to preach. We go to spread the love of Christ. We went just wanting to bless. You think it's that easy under that hot weather? It's not. But we went in all sincerity just to bless and help if anyone needs any help. One old uncle pointed out that he needs pple to help him move the things in his house. So we said we would arrange a time again and help him do it.
So i prayed that GOd please at least take the discomfort, swelling and weakness in the legs for that period of time at least. Make it easier for me. And haha..HE did actually. Altho not completely, but at least i didn't feel like dying.
So i learnt alot. Actually it's more like i re committed my faith back to God. Trust that He will help and show me the way, no matter how i feel or how weak i am.
Even on Friday, it was a terribly long long day for me. It was a team building day for my company. And i mentioned i was not well right. But yet i couldn't take MC bcos i wasn't actually having my period and all but i was really unwell to the point that i felt my life is crippled. But we had games from 10.30am to 12.30pm and i didn't get to sit down at any point. It was constantly like hyped up gameplays and team spirits with all the team shouting their cheers. By lunch i was so drained by all those things. If i wasn't unwell i think i would have enjoyed the day more.
After lunch, we went to Bedok reservior for 'Forest Adventure'. It involves lots of climbing, heights, jumping. Basically lots of strength. I prayed sooooo hard the night before that God please don't let my period come tomorrow. If not it will complicate things so much. Lets just say it's really annoying to be doing physical excercises when your period is here. And it's excruciating when ur period gives you cramps. The last thing u want to do is to be climbing and running around. So my period didn't come. God answered my prayers. And i didn't think i would survive the whole damn thing but i did. I think i wouldn't survive only bcos of my wobbly legs. If not the thing is not that difficult, it was tiring but it wasn't that difficult. That one week, i really felt like i tired out so easily. Wobbly legs oso can make you tired...it's ...amazing..
Really, i have God to thank to bringing me through the course. I took panadol menstrual before i went climbing the stuffs. Cos i really could take it anymore. For that 3 hrs, strength was temporarily restored to my legs. Could be the drug..or it could be God's intervention. But anyway, i'm glad i didn't die. Then a long trip home.
I'll post the photos up when i get the chance. Getting lazy. SO many photos, but i just don't post them up.
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