Tuesday, December 25, 2007 . 11:13 PM
Merry Xmas to all my friends! Labels: christmas, family, life
It's been a while since i updated my blog ...again. I had such a long weekend, cos i took leave on last Friday and yesterday, was so shiock. Sadly, the holidays for me has ended and i have to go back to work tomorrow. Argh.
I tot had the perfect opportunity to slow things down alittle and have a good rest during this short break, I was so wrong. My mom, as i have shared with many of my friends, have been giving mi lots of problems recently. She stopped her medication and had been pulling her long black face every single day. I've been avoiding talking to her bcos i know that every chance that i gave her to tok, she would scold the shit out of me and everything and everyone in the house, including my poor rabbit. And we did argue like twice during these period, which was quite sad really. It was troubling me so much that i really dreaded my mom returning home from work every night, either that or i'll stay out till late so that she would have slept by the time she's back. But that's the irony! I think she needs pple to be more concerned about her, she seemed to want our attention by being such an evil queen. But the things she was doing was in fact driving mi away from her. On my part, it was SOOO difficult to love her when i'm absolutely terrified of her.
To make things worse, it's Xmas! Xmas is a season for love and giving, a time you spend it with you dear family and friends. And this year, Xmas especially meant alot more to me mainly because of the state of relationship that my mom and i were, the kind of situation that my whole family is in. I wish we could be closer. I envy my friend's family when i learnt that they celebrate every xmas together with their extended family(macham mini chinese new yr gathering)For the 1st time, i wanted a Xmas tree in the house. SO to brighten the house up, put alittle joy and warmth in this family. With my tight budget and some help from Mr Albert, we managed to have a little Xmas tree at home, with decos and lights. And we are Christians right? Then y am i not celebrating Xmas more? It is right to have Xmas trees at home(tho it's not religious) and if there are chances in the future, like family gatherings. But of cos..i know it's almost impossible for that now.
And this year, i've been blessed alot by the pple around me. MY office had a Xmas lunch and gift exchange last Tuesday and it was really fun. I felt strangely warmed by this new company of friends i have. My colleagues were so nice, they gave me so many presents that i was really surprised. And i felt bad, bcos i had not prepared any presents for them(bcos of limitation of the wallet....haha) and truthfully, i had not thought of giving them any presents. That's really embarrassing of me lor.What has happened to that giving spirit!!?! Seems like i'm getting abit too self centered these days and i didn't think of extending my love to others thru giving.
I had two wonderful gatherings at my place. 1st was a gathering amongst my group of gals, tho i invited some other guys (very last minute), they weren't able to turn up. It's so called my 1st time in organizing such event. Being a host is really no easy task, organising a small scale party was also tedious. I didn't exactly want us to go out n have dinner for this year, like the usual. Anyway, thanks for coming over guys. I hope you guys did enjoy yourself. Everything was kept as fuss-free as possible. Even so, i had put in at least 2 days of like cleaning up and getting things ready.
2nd gathering was my cell grp coming over to play games in my house today after Xmas service and lunch at NYDC. Unfortunately, the organizer here didn't plan much thigns except some games and after heavy sumptuous meal at NYDC, we all went into hibernating mode. To look at it on the positive side, i think my house has a very comfortable feel to it, if not why were everyone so quick to fall asleep in my house!
Anyway, i like having my friends over at my house. I like being host to them and i love to share a part of my more intimate life with you guys. But of cos i would appreciate next yr someone else is willing to share abit more of their intimate life details with us hee.
Last but not least, i think these few days had been quite tiring for me mentally. I was so tortured and bothered by my mom's stuffs. Bcos of her, i've been trying to move Angel into my room and before i could do that, i had to do a major cleanup of my room. In the process i threw many things away. My room now has never been this CLEAN. Thanks to my dear boyfriend who finds it a joy to clean up my room together. Where to find such a man right? I'm so fortunate.
ANd then i spent much time devoted to trying to get Angel to adapt to staying in my room. I bought a 2nd hand dog partition from my cell grp member. The idea is to put Angel in the partition with his litterbox and water bowl and watever toys and make it his home. Then he may comes out to play ard my room whenever i'm around. SUch simple concept right? Turns out to b a nightmare. He HATES the partition. HE HATES being 'caged' up. He went into his stupid nervous panicky mood and even tho he has his litterbox there, he decided to pee and poo at other corners of the partition. Once, while hiding under my bed, he actually peed there. ANd i had to suffer the aftermath of his peeing. I had to mop, move my bed and wipe the floor and tolerate his stinky pee for ..probably 1 hr before the smell went away. So i seriously question if he can really actually stay in my room becos i couldn't stand the smell of his pee n poo. But i bought soemthing from the petshop, something you could spray on the litterbox and poo n pee to remove the smell and replace with a nice fragrance. It actually worked! But still, Angel doesn't like to be in the partition so me being soft hearted would return him to the toilet after awhile. SIghz. Then i have my mom who was making so much noise abt putting him in my room bcos she thinks it's so unhealthy, with all the fur and smell. And then she also doesn't wan mi to put him in the toilet. I was like stuck in b/w. Nothing i did was actually right for her? I think the only right thing for her would be the time when i finally got rid of poor Angel. N becos Angel had been in my room for a few hours each day, i mop the floor of my room everyday to get rid of any fur that is in my room in case she starts her nonsense again. And if i want Angel to b inside my room, i do have to mop the floor everyday. SO i'm trying to keep my room as simple as possible so that things won't trap fur. Sighz. What a nightmare. The worse part is Angel is being stupid. He can't adapt. Stupid!
Xmas gathering with my gal pals. WE actually had alittle too much to drink too soon and i got kinda drunk. Then everyone went home by 10.30pm actually. I really have to thank Albert again for being such a gd host. Altho it was held at my home, he was actually the one to do most of the serving that night. HE was always on the move, running around getting drinks ready, food, cups. Even after my friends left, he was the one who tidied up the things, washed the glasses and plates, throw the waste, wiped the tables etc. And bcos Deying broke her beloved russian vodka bottle at my place, Albert spent quite a long time vacuuming and mopping the floor to clean up the broken shards, while me laid on the sofa halfway concussed. So i didn't actually even lift my fingers at cleaning. I basically just laid on the sofa till he left. He's so nice and i'm so fortunate. :p
Raffles town club, last Wednesday night. I felt alittle like i was going to a ball. Bcos the whole place was richly decorated with Xmas decos and they really had party/ball going on downstairs in the ballroom with all the champaigns and wine serving.
Self-obsession. Ignore me.
The small lighted Xmas tree with the love of my life, my Angel.
Xmas Lunch with some of my cell group members @ Holland V's NYDC
Deying's bro's wedding Dinner..sometime back. I just tot i look absolutely stunning here hahaha....so i have to upload it to friendster and my blog. :p
