Wednesday, September 12, 2007 . 10:11 PM
There's a part of me that strongly wish that my life can be like the past and have never changed..at least not so drastically? Labels: careers
Everything that is more familiar to me has been replaced by some new things. There are probably too many things to handle at the moment.
DO i miss my old work place? Kinda miss it. Can't imagine i'll say that one day...but yeah i do. Bcos i get to slack? WEll.....more like i have more freedom to handle my own time in a lab setting. And becos i'm new to the current place, of cos i can't do watever i wan. I have to observe and see if it's permissible and acceptable or not.
This place has so far been nice. I expected some hiccups on the 1st day but was quite smooth. As in i was thinking, mayb they haven't got my access card ready, my pc ready, my password ready or watever. But everything was ready. My supervisor is really nice. He introduced mi to everyone and briefed me, even took care of my access problems and any problems that i had. He came around to check on me every now and then to make sure things are ok. This place is very female working environment. Males...i think less than 10 males, in addition of the finance department which is in another office nearby.
The pple are really friendly, they would come over and say hi even if i don't go over to introduce myself. It's more of a relaxed environment where the upper levels mingle with the lower levels easily like friends. I should be thankful, that my colleagues are really nice. This will make working there very enjoyable, in the future.
For now, of cos i'm not really enjoying myself much. There are nothing much for me to do. All i do are filling and more filling, data keying...learning some new things..and i think that would take up most of my 6 mths probation here, till i'm qualified to do more. There is a list of online modules that i have to take and learn, that would take mi 4- more than 6 months. I don mind that..at least i get to learn things.
But seriously, i'm trying to adjust as much as i can. I don't look forward to working bcos deep down i still prefer being a tai tai. HAHA. I'm really not meant to be working lar pls. I couldnt' even get up in the morning. And i had a hard time getting up these 2 days LOR! I had to get up at 7.30am nowadays to make it to office by 9am. That's cos now i have to put some makeup etc..wah lau wat a waste of time which could be spent snuggling under my blankets when the weather is so gd. But what drives me now is the fear of what my supervisor thinks of me. I'm always that sensitive and alittle paranoid. But if i'm too slack, then i'm going to really make that place my home and all my ugly work attitude will come out. So i dragged myself out of bed 'willingly', in order to give my supervisor a gd impression. Anyway 9am start work, 6pm get off. IF not i have to work till later. Everyone in the office tells me that i better enjoy this period while i can becos when i really have projects and work coming in, i'll b super busy. I doubt i'll b as busy as them, they sometimes work till 9 or 10pm. My god. See y i'm feeling as if i'm traumatized.
The office tends to be quite empty sometimes bcos pple go out to sites ( hospitals) and some are overseas doing monitoring jobs. Doesn't sound very fun to me.
The relationship i have with this place is alittle complicated actually. The boy that my mom used to babysit, his mom works as the finance manager there. Altho having such a big shot whom i am quite/very acquainted with can be a very gd thing, bcos noone would bully you (but then again, the big shots mingle ard like old friends with the small flies...so i don think that is much use anyway), but yes i do think it's v stressful. Bcos of expectations. The weird and awkward thing that i can't handle is, i'm so used to calling her aunty. Bcos she's juz like my aunt, a family u know.. and the next thing i know i'm her colleague and i got to call her by her name. ALAMAK. The 1st day, i had a slip of the tongue and blurted out my aunty greetings, then everyone had a gd laff at me and her. Huida's friend is a senior CRA there, and she had been very helpful and also taking gd care of me. She seemed to b really close to this aunty man. I mean it's complicated. And i know Andrea. The gal who introduced mi to the job. And then, Andrea is leaving, her last day on next monday. I'm so sad. WE really no fate. We only had the fate to b neighbors, uni classmates, labmates and campus crusade mates. Ok actually we are quite fated haha...juz that this time..we kinda missed each other..juz like that. so sad.
Friday, the colleagues would be holding a farewell party for her and another ex colleague whom i have not met before. It doesn't matter, it's an ex colleague liao mah haha..muz concentrate on the future colleagues before me. It's a gathering at FOUR SEASONS CONDO....that condo near FOUR SEASONS HOTEL. ONe of the senior staffs's house wor. my gosh. If u ask me, i don't really wan to go. I mean i hardly know the pple, i hardly understands their intimate jokes about each other. And i've to juz go? Gez wat? i said ok i'll go. BCOS, i can't afford to start on the wrong foot yeah? I have to go and network right? If i had known better, i shd have said i'm busy this friday or something. Man........well...pray and hope that somethign gd will come out of this. I hate socializing nowadays. I juz wan my old life back. I wan to go dancing, i've not been dancing much. I wan to go home n watch tv till late. I wan to watch youtube and chat on msn. Youtube is baned in my company. MSN i donoe, but i try not to on it yet.....
As for the pple in the company, we are like united nations. Bcos there are more foreigners than singaporeans and it's time like this i'm proud that i'm a msian hahaha..cos majority wins!Yeah!! But it's interesting. We have Filipinos, china chinese, british, american, someone from netherlands,indonesians,msians,taiwanese. Wat else.... u get the pic...
Wonder wat else would i have to do tomorow. The happiest time of the day is when i get off work haha...i gez i used to feel like this when i 1st started my job at the previous place. I wonder how long would i take to settle down and start feeling secured and relaxed.
The good old days. These photos were taken like 3-4 months after i joined the lab. Was the danish couple's farewell bbq at my ex-boss's condo. I didn't know them THAT well then too. I also felt obliged to go at that point only. But still, it's better than knowing your colleagues not more than a week and u got to go out n have 'fun' with them. If only we are going to a pub or something ...haha i don mind :P i'm shy u know............. sighz...how i miss the pple in the lab. The gd old days. Hey my hair now is back to the hair length back then!
