Thursday, April 12, 2007 . 7:40 PM
Some photos we took in the Esplanade Theater last Tuesday. Resolution is not very good bcos we used Albert's Hp.I didn't bring my camera bcos i know cameras are not allowed to b brought into the Theater, just didn't want more hassles.... The photos' resolutions are not good but at least we managed to capture some nice memories of that night. I even had to use photoshop to brighten up the photos bcos it was really SO DARK.
That's me,all elegant in my new black dress...but well u can't see much of the dress here anyway. I bet ur thinking im in my self-praising,egoistic, narcissistic self today. You are damn right. Im going to praise myself to the skies in this entry.
The stage decor, to reflect the splendor of the Paris opera house featured in the Phantom Of the Opera
Deying and me...
This was taken during the remission, while Deying decided to take a quick nap. I purposely turned the flash off, so as not to disturb her. In return, of cos the photo was so dark i can hardly make out our faces in the dark, so after brightening it.......resolutions sucks. haha..
I still have some photos, but they are in my office's pc. So i'll post them up another time. And yes about the female conductor. Yes she's very stylo, very cool, very pretty. How Albert and Deying figured out that she's pretty..really..i have no idea, i mean her back was facing the audience the whole time. And yes she had really nice toned arms.
I know i haven't been writing this blog for a while. Actually wasn't that long. The last entry was from last week. I bet you all missed me. Ha.
The reason i've not been writing was cos i do not have anyting much to write. I mean my mood this week has been down, down, down and more down the pits. I've no idea why. Seriously, nothing is really going wrong...but yet i feel like so down and siansified? The only reason i could think of is pms.
I've been occupied with sending resumes. I don't know how many i've sent and whichever companies i've sent to. I just kept sending, hoping to get at least a chance...hopefully someone will reply. Some companies didn't even have openings, so i deposited my resumes there. Any Jobstreet, JobsDB jobs that looked promising, i'll apply. Having said that, i applied to mainly Clinical Research Associate jobs. As i was looking thru so many jobs in the life science industry, i realised that being a clinical research associate is the wisest choice. There are so many other jobs that are related to CRA (clinical research associate), which means after being a CRA, there are so many areas that i can jump into, that is..if im sick of being a CRA. SO yeah...gez im going for it.
Recruit express called me today. I applied for some of the jobs they posted on JobsDB. I hope they arrange some interviews for mi, the lady talked about a Japanese CRO company who is employing now. CRO = contract research organizations. There are probably 3 likely places where a CRA can work in. 1) pharmaceutical companies, 2) CROs and 3) hospitals. Out of these 3, i really prefer CRO more. I won't talk about all the details. I mean it's only for mi and pple in this field to know lar..
Im trying sooo hard to get out of my current job. Sometimes i ask myself if i really want it so badly? It's not like i hate my current job, just feel really stagnant. Feel like my life has came to a standstill, that i can't move on. I can't plan anything. I can't plan to get married bcos i have no money, i can't plan to give my family a better life bcos i have no extra money, i can't buy a car bcos i still have no money. Well, would b nice to secure a better paying job. Not just the pay im concerned with. Suddenly during this week, i felt like i've been wasting so much time being stuck like this. NO doubt my current job is really comfortable. I've been thinking....if only i hadn't gone into labs, and i've started going into CRA in the first place....where would i b now... when i graduated, there were many CRA or clinical coordinators jobs around. I remembered some pple wanting to help me pull strings. I even said, i want to try working in the labs 1st. Now..thinking back, i don't know wat to think of my decisions back then.Now im just trying all my best to get a chance to get in. I hope im making the right moves and a better company than the one who dumped me will come along. Got to pray hard.
Tuesday afternoon, i brought my dad to SGH for ultrasound and xray. This was ordered by the urology specialist. The ultrasound cost 58 bucks aldy.Xray 17 bucks. Sighz. One trip to hospital...
Next friday, we would b going to see the doctor plus doing a scope, to see my dad's bladder. That would cost $220 but there's medisave. My mom had declared that she doesn't wan to b involved in any of these. So it has been my bro and uncle..and me bringing my dad to the hospital. I got alittle pissed at her for saying such things. But i gez she's happier like that, then so be it lor. Won't kill me to bring my dad to hospitals. Just wish i have a car or something, but it's ok with taxis...at least i don't have to find parkings.
And last nite, i went to church to meet a counselor. Finally, i plucked up enuff courage to seek help. I don't know y. The idea of going to a counselor is alittle weird. Most pple don't like to go and see a counselor. Its just alittle repulsive ... so my mom thinks she doesnt' need help in that way. So i decided to go see the counselor myself without telling mom. I juz needed some advice in what i can do. After telling her about wat my mom went thru, im very thankful that she understood me. I think what's always comforting is when pple really understands. Most pple don't understand. She suggested that i start building a relationship with my mom 1st, before any other pple can come into the picture to talk to her, cos she's v resistant to the idea as well. She gave me some ideas of what i could do...to show love to my mom. I'm glad i went to see her.
I shd b dancing now, but i managed to convince my instructor that i need some rest, im so tired and so on. Partly it's true that im really tired. The other reason being i really have no mood. SIghz.
ciaoz
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