Thursday, March 22, 2007 . 10:51 AM
Somehow, i've been thrown into the role of an adviser recently. Advising who? Advising my friends. Labels: life
Lloyd thanked me for coming back to spend time with God, bcos it's exactly the time that they needed me. Previously, i've been not doing my quiet time, and hence i was feeling really tired and drained. And then even more previously, the big quarrel with mom.
And questions like why are things like that, my all the sufferings, why the burdens,....how am i going to hold on to God's words to tide me thru these burdens that i have on my shoulders.
Then i read a book, called ' I kissed a lot of frogs, but the Prince didn't come' . It's a christian relationship book. I bought it cos i tot the title is really funny. But the author doesn't JUST talks about relationship, finding a mate, singlehood for God, but also ... the pains and sufferings in life. And that's just what i needed....what i've been kinda looking for, put out simply like that. The verses that she quoted ministered to me. And it was also timely that my friends faced problems, so i shared the verses with them.Once again, im beginning to let go and let God take control. I want to follow God, in everything that i do, my lifestyles, my behaviours, just simply my life, bcos i can feel Him calling me. The joy of being with God...is enuff. No wonder pple can praise God and say that He is their joy...i mean what i wrote. And this was my prayer last nite to commit myself to God without holding back once again.
This one week, i finally realised that what i've been thru in life, God will use them to show others the way, God will use the experiences to comfort others who are going thru a bad time. I mean i often had to fumble in the dark for directions in life, besides God and mayb some friends who can offer some advices, i really had to figure them out myself. This is because most pple have not/did not go thru wat i had to go thru. Mayb it was alittle early for most pple my age to go thru wat i have to....or mayb it's jsut that pple in Singapore are too fortunate. But well...began to see that God has plans for all these. As in really seeing the plans. Im glad im of some help to you guys. And im glad that you guys look for me when you have problems.
Just wanna say that, many pple throw many shit at us in life, how do we still b nice to them? Although sometimes drastic measures like scolding the person is required. But if it comes to that point, you can still do things correctly. If u have done wat is right, then just leave the right to God. He will settle it. There are many things we cannot control. We cannot control who throw us shit. We cannot control how they throw shit at us. And we cannot control our circumstances. But we can choose what kind of mentality and behaviour to face them.3Not only so, but we[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Don't ask me wat kind of mentality you have to adopt to face the kind of things pple throw at you. Spend time with God, you will know. If u do not know, ur really not seeking enuff, or quietening down enuff.
Romans 5:3-5
Whether ur a christian or not, Romans 5:3-5 speaks of something.... in a way, sufferings in life are 'good'. Why? Bcos it produces perseverance, if everything is so smooth and simple, we don't appreciate what we have or given. IF life was so simple, you will never think of how u need to behave or react, you will never grow. It's like forever sheltered in school and never knowing what the world out there is like. yes, being sheltered means a gd life. But we all knw that reality is that we all need to go out n work one day. And life takes on a different meaning.... people relations, family burdens, parents falling ill, siblings getting married, marriage, children. Although now it may b alittle tough now, but trust me, you will grow and matured bcos of such bad experiences. I've grown. I've matured.
Some pple just don't see the kind of wisdom n things that i can spill out, bcos they themselves have not even gone thru much in life and they won't understand it anyway. The time is just not there yet for them to understand, but they will in the future. For me, i don't need to put all these on my lips all the time, telling pple that life has been so tough etc... It's not THAT tough bcos i won't want to think of my life as being so tough.
For the christians, draw comfort that God says he will always be with you always. Besides building us up with our circumstances and situations as we learn to lean on Him, we have hope in God. He loves us so much that He wans to b with us, by giving us the Holy Spirit to reside in us. We have the hope that things will b betta.
Whatever you are worried about, careers, money, BGR, girls, boys, colleagues...they are never too great for God to solve. Just trust that He will. There's always a way out.
if you think im dishing out instructions of how to manage your life, im not. IF you think that well, it's easy for me to say all these, cos it's afterall not me going thru your pain. I admit that everyone's pain and suffering can be very different. But take comfort that i understand, and sometimes i can practically feel your pains..im familar with how it feels like. Bcos i've been thru it, and still going thru them.
If you think breaking up gives u the most pain in life, the kind of tightness and pain you feel, as if your heart is literally stabbed every other minute....if you think that's the most horrible pain you will ever feel and it only happens after break up with your ex bf/gf?? That's not true. Bcos i feel it all the time when it comes to my family and my parents. So ..yeah.. be glad if u don feel such pain all the time. B glad that breaking up is the only time u felt such extreme pain. And take comfort that there's someone human here who also understands. God def understands and feel ur pains. Even i can feel it, y can't He rite?
To me, just knowing the verses and biblical knowledge and not doing them with your heart means not really knowing how God wants u to apply the truth.
We keep saying we love God, how many of us really know how to love God or really experience that love? Do you know what's love in the 1st place? u think u know....but think about it. if we don't love the pple around us, who God loves, do we love God when we claim to?
I have compassion for pple, i care for pple. I wanna love the pple bcos God loves the pple. But i've been finding it hard to do these few mths bcos i am afraid. Afraid that when i give my heart out, pple take it and step on it..
I went for the group training course yesterday at my church. This is something that all leaders have to go thru in the church. I felt a really strong sense of calling to go into care ministry. Care ministry in my church is basically giving care to pple in need, in pain, for example, pple who may b ill, handicapped or just going thru a really bad time and they need help. Im not trained in this. And i can say that im not gd enuff to care for pple, bcos i cant even care for my family well. But precisely, bcos of my experience with my family problems, my dad's illness and mom's mental stability, i know the importance of having support. I feel drawn in that area. As an assistant leader, i would also like to b one who care enuff to go all the way for the pple in my group and not just the surface chit chat,friendly thing every week. Im not born a leader. Im not a leader person. But leadership could b trained and most importantly, to b a vessel to allow God to do His purposes thru me. Being a leader is nothing woo ha or glorious. U need to b absolutely humble for God to shine thru you, i gez that's abit hard for mi to do since im so fiesty. I can b humble. But im fiesty. I don't have that much pride in mi that i cannot b humble. If my frens know me well, they should know that im not the kind of person who likes to draw attention to myself. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. Isaiah 55:8
