Monday, December 04, 2006 . 3:39 PM
It's december. Gosh. Im starting to have butterflies in my tummy. Bcos its drawing closer and closer to my competition and perfomance. And still so many to do, but yet im not so willing to practice n try to improve more. I can't wait for the whole thing to b damn over. Then i can get my BIG break for dancing. At least have time to enjoy christmas.
Advent has really started haha..i got the thing wrong. Started on Sunday.
Baptism on this sat. Finally our 6 weeks baptism course has ended. I'll b goin on a yr journey to apply to b member of this church. I know some churches don have such things but anyway it's a methodist thing. Anyway will b serving in a ministry soon. Still thinking. There will b someone to walk closer with me also. So whether i really make a decision to become a member or not, it's not that a big deal. It's more of the desire to want to be given the opportunities to serve and something to push mi to go for more courses to learn more things. Basically to not b a lukewarm christian but actively serving God in whatever that i can. After i get the membership a yr later,i would also still continue serving of cos. It's not just a 'title' nor a 'status'.
Sunday morning, i was at padang, waiting for albert to finish his 42km. But since i was kept waiting and was pouring, i went to shop instead. IN the process i managed to spend like 60 bucks and got a pair of really ncie jeans n shoes. juz realised i can b such a spender sometimes...oh no...
As i was heading towards the mrt station from city link, i came upon the area where shoppers had to go down the escalator and up again. A crowd was forming at one side of the stairs, looking down at something and personally, i thought someone jumped off the stairs and attempted suicide though that is v unlikely, but given the increase in GST and popularity of pple jumping off to die...mayb it's possible afterall. 10+ over pple were crowding around staring at something. There must b such a commotion. But turned out it's juz a lady who was wheelchair bound, using the wheelchair facility that City Link had installed at the side of the stairs. But y the commotion? Y the need to stare at her as if she's some entertainment object? As if she's an animal in the zoo? Probably the nosey aunties and uncles just wanted to check out how the wheelchair carrier thing works, but come on, if u wan to know how it works y don't u get urself disabled, sit on a wheelchair and try urself man? I think there's something seriously WRONG and sick with Singaporeans. Although we live in a 'high-class' city, we are well developed on the surface with our buildings and infrastructure but we are so underdeveloped in our mentality and attitude or should i say...mayb frogs in well. Its ok to b suaku in other areas but it's inhumane to treat another human as entertainment objects just because u seldom see such things in Singapore. The reason y u don see wheelchair bound pple moving ard often, using those pathetically few facilities catered to them is precisely bcos of such people. The poor lady sitting in her wheelchair did not even dare to lift up her head to look up towards the crowd of pple bcos their stares were aldy making her very self concious and nervous. Singaporeans do not have the sensibility, sensitivity and compassion towards the more less priveledged pple in our society.
Y do i feel so much over such an incident? Bcos my dad himself is wheelchair bound and yes, i've encountered many ugly personal incidents, although not comparable to what the lady experienced, but i really think the society needs to b educated. Singaporeans need to b educated in every single way. IF gahmen can educate us not to litter, how to flush toilets after use, then im sure they can do something about Singaporean's self-centered attitudes. People no longer really help strangers out. Not to accuse all Singaporeans of such behaviors or mentalities, they are still kind pple who would lend a helping hand, sacrificing their seats, or time. But many who are simply too self-centered to notice the needy pple around them, all they care about is their own schedule or inconveneinces if they have to help someone else.
From taking care of my dad, i know he gets nervous whenever pple stare at him for too long, then his muscles and movements will become even tougher. So please, pple like my dad already has physical handicaps to deal with, your stares will only make them feel even worse. Y do you have to make someone feel worse about themselves?? For ur own curiosity's sake, you may stare for ONE sec. I figured i do not need to b polite to such pple, esp when it comes to my dad. If situation really requires i should juz scold these pple off.
I wished i hadn't walked off like this yesterday. I shd have done something, said something to the crowd. But i just didn't have the guts to do so. So angry that i walked off, determined to walk as far as possible from these idiots. Then i realised i shd have taken a photo of these pple.............and make sure everyone knows who these busybodies..
Anyway, Albert finished at 12.30pm. This is a photo of him after he finished.
Haha.. I run for Jesus.. Apparently 10 men who ran past him yelled out 'Amen' to him haha...
After that we went back to church for the course. What a long day.
This is one set of my perfomance costumes. The one that i said the materials are so nice..they cost ard 150+....
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