Friday, December 08, 2006 . 3:56 PM
I seem to run to this blog to vent all my feelings n experience on, like it's my bf.
Last nite was at orchid country club dancing. Yes i know it's v far. I don't wan to explain another time y we always haev to go there n practice.
Derrick's costumes not done up yet. There this shirt that he's asked pple to make, and my skirt that he said resembles a cheerleader skirt that's not here. Next week they are available for collection.
So he wore his pants, which he got the material and made himself. I brought 2 set of clothes. One top was my own, one that i got from Perth, which i didn't even wear out once b4, considering the trip to Perth was like 4 yrs ago? I don't know y i didn't wear it out. I gezz i was such a conservative gal. 
Anyway i found it in my closet and i tot the shiny glitters would fit into the silver theme that we chose for our clothes. SO i tried dancing in this. The skirt was the one that cost 78 bucks that i photographed a few entries earlier. After some dancing, realised that this tube doesn't even stay, it tends to slide down and after some tugging n pulling from dancing i was so afraid that i'll 'run colour' so i changed to something else.
After that wore the backless dress and practiced in it.It's always gd to practice in ur costumes b4 the real thing as you never know wat u may encounter that is unpredictable. And true enuff, the dress needs some stitching on both sides to make it tighter. Haiz.
If ur wondering y not i ask my mom to do the sticthing for me....well...i never show her the dress. I don't wan her to disapprove of me dancing or say nasty discouraging things like " u shdn't mix with the pple of the dance circle so much ..u never know wat the guys are thinking abt..they are all horny bastards blah blah...." It's not like i don't know how bastardy guys can b even if i've onli encountered little bastards my whole life, but i still know how to protect myself at least. She always have such paranoid way of looking at guys.I mean u shdn't b too overly paranoid and suspicious of every guy but of cos u shd b wary of them. Let's juz say Derrick is ok.
Mayb i'll really ask my mom to help mi out. She won't wan her daughter to 'run color' on stage anyway rite? It's really difficult for mi to stitch it myself when i have to b wearing the dress n do the stitches...oh man...i really sound liek a housewife. Not onli do i cook (not-so-appetising) meals, i also sew. I also wash the toilet, wash the clothes and mop the floor. Kidding lar..actually my sewing skills really suck. I don't know how to use the sewing machine actually, no matter how much Home Econs lessons we had with the machine i was still clueless.....
Bcos the dance studio is actually situated in the gym, but at one corner, there's only a door for other nosey pple to actually stand around n look in. There were actually a few guys coming over at different times checking us out. * see wat see.........................*
I realised my the backless shirt is quite short. Would actually b nicer if the skirt is longer so that it creates a betta effect when u turn. See how lar...
Next tues and thursday im supposed to practice..the last 2 times b4 the competition and perfomance. But tues we can't go Xenba cos they would b conducting courses for the salsa congress thingie. So we have to see if we can book anywhere else...pay money lar. Then it juz happens that monday after 8.30pm Tanglin cc would not have any classes anymore so i can go and practice. So i chose to go on monday, at least we have a proper place to practice properly but ...........i think my period would b coming.............that's a tricky thing..........bcos........i do not know when it's coming.......... it may b on sunday (10th) HOpefully it is..if not it will come on 9th which is on my baptism..NONONOOOOOOO......... so if it's 10th then monday(11th) it would b heavy and i really do not want to dance with a heavy period. DOn't need mi to go into details rite.
Friday's competition will b held in union square. I heard the place is bloody small and the dance floor is also bloody small, juz enuff for one couple. But that's not the point. the point is.....the audience would b not like sitting faraway but v close to u..surrounding the dance floor...crowding ard..oh man....... i really hope i don get freaked out.
Sat's performance, we have to b there by 3pm latest to do a run thru. A rehearsal for the whole thing. THen evening we will also have another rehearsal. And then the real thing. OMg..can u juz imagine the amount of time wasting doing nothing but looking at other pple dance....................................
My instructor still wanted to go for the course at 10am in the morning. I told him oh i cannot lar...i sure cannot last that long so pls don torture mi -_-...
oh man.........................
He gave mi some v gd advice on tackling the stage fright. The more u are anxious abt it,the more u won't do ur things properly. So juz let go and enjoy dancing like ur playing and plus when u know pple are looking at u, since u don't do well also die, u do well might not die...his theory is that you will juz buck up and do well as long as u don get too stressed abt it.
We need to have ample time to actually warm up, which means dancing n dancing around b4 it's our turn, bcos if u don't warm up u definetely can't dance well.
So ya basically that's it...
Can't wait for next week to pass asap........but at the same time im worried lar of cos...
Man thurs practice, fri competition, sat perfomance...sulk
I have a few prayer requests. Mayb u guys can pray for mi. if u can't then at least i get to voice my concerns.
1) Please pray for my prayer to b coming ONLI on 10th.
2) For the baptism to go thru smoothly but im sure it will cos GOd is def going to b with us.
3) Pray that God will use this opportunity to open my mom's heart to Him. soften her heart...pray that God will use me as an example to show her how richly blessed we are when we believe in this God..
4)Pray for all frens and cell grp members who would b there to be able to mingle together with my mom.
5) Thanksgiving towards my baptism.I've finally made this decision to b baptised after many yrs. Pray that it would b a defining moment of my journey with God.
6) Pray for strength for the coming week, as it would b one of the toughest period of time for me.Tat i'll learn to give all to God, including the dancing, the competition and the perfomance.Pray that God will refreash me... esp when i oso have to cope with having period n dancing....argh.
7) last of all, i've decided i can bring my dad to go for my baptism. He doesn't know actually. My mom n dad usually can't hang out together.So i never tot of asking dad. Since mom is actually much closer to mi than dad is. But God has provided mi the opportunity to..bcos deying would b driving and she can drive us n dad to church yap so that's a load off my chest abt how to transport my dad. Thanks Deying. Thank God.Pray for my dad's heart to be open to GOd as well.
I feel like that christian who doesn't dress up like one.
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