Tuesday, October 31, 2006 . 10:38 AM
in love and lonely by ~Hoeg on deviantART
Found this rather cute pic on deviantart.com. Click on it to go to the other drawings done by the artist.
God has nothing to do with dancing unless i decide to ask God to b involve in my dancing. Then i won't feel so drained and have peace. Do it for God. Do it for His glory. Thank Him for the talents He has given me and use it for His glory, to glorify Him lar. Saying is so easy. When it comes to doing it, i really struggle with that. Bcos i know by my own efforts, i can do it. But yes it really drains me. I keep thinking what the hell am i doing...sometimes even wish that i give it up then i can so free...so free to do watever i wan with my time... but then i know, i'll probably regret later. I won't want to regret it..i hardly allow any room for regrets in my life. That's my principle. Never do anything that u know u will regret in the future. That means doing my best for things like relationship,friendship,family etc..so that i won't regret y didn't i do more when i think abt abt my life.
Sometimes i think remaining in NUS is a not a bad idea. I get to have lots of own free time, long lunch breaks..5 days work week..and everyday go home at 6pm. It's rather carefree. But pay abit low. But i seem to enjoy life like this. Wonder if i ever change jobs, would it b the same? Higher pay means u trade off ur life for the job. Sian. Don't mind staying here. But for 20 yrs? Rather stupid eh? 20 years later, the new comers, will say im stupid to stay for 20 yrs.
Anyway tonite, dancing again. Yesterday oso dancing. Ultimate sian lar. But i can't say no. Bcos tonite we have to show to the xenbar boss again and get feedback again. SIAN. Under scrutinity and criticism again. Somemore go home at 11pm onli..that is IF they do not drag even more. Feel like swearing. Bcos i know im sick and i need more rest and i've to go dancing bcos of the impending salsa festival. And who is gonna appreciate my efforts? Y am i taking 3 days leave, wed to friday for? Bcos im absolutely drained!! I need more rest so that i can recover halo?? And the onli way i can get more rest is by taking leave and eating into my own time instead of cutting down on dance. Can i rest this matter in God's hands? It's as if my rebellious nature is rebelling agaisnt everything and i WANT things MY WAY. God please make all thigns right. Take mi thru tonite. THE last nite!!! And tomoro i can sleep in aldy. Mayb by tomoro i'll be dead and pple will b sorry for making mi dance when im so sick.
God bless me.
PS BTW, i've enabled RSS feed for my blog so that if you love mi so much that you wanna subscribe to my blog, you could add the feed to your RSS feeder.Thanks to Julian who taught mi the usefulness of RSS feeds haha.. my RSS feed is http://princessnaomi.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default ( in case u can't locate the RSS feed in my messy blog..) Im using Netvibes, also recommended by Julian.
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