Wednesday, July 12, 2006 . 8:43 PM
THis week muz b one of the toughest week i ever had...
Lord, if you may, please take the pain away???
MY right leg is hurting and aching. I sit too long, i feel the blood circulation not going well. I stand up to allow the blood to flow, i feel this ache that makes me only wan to sit down. Sit down the blood is cut off, stand up the ache drives me mad... *pull hair*
The ulcer at the tip of my tongue got worse, but thankfully after applying medication just now, it has gotten betta, at least i can now talk abit. It even bleed quite alot just now lor....
My period is coming. And as you can see from my previous blog entry, i'm in a terrible pms state. Not only my mood is black, i'm feeling the uncomfortable ache, typical of pre-period.
I donoe where else can i hurt. I feel like crying yes i do. And admitedly, i did cry. Bcos it's getting so tough. Am i such a weakling? I can tahan the stupid aching in my right leg for 2 yrs. I can tahan the stupid painful tie da treatment. AM i such a weakling? I think i am. Bcos i can barel tahan all the pain.. anymore. I'm breaking down. MY body is breaking down.
WHen i'm in such pain, I wish God can take all these away. BUt yet i fall into despair, not wanting to seek GOd...i'm afraid of being disappointed. What if he doesn't help me?
Waitat told me, y don i lay my hands on my right leg and pray for healing myself and believe that GOd will heal me, i will be healed. I was telling him abt Brother Francis Khoo who has the gift of healing. Where's tat little faith of mine?
Thank you my friends, who bothered to ask me who am i every day at work. I'm thankful.. bcos if you guys didn't care, i think i would b even more down.
And i stepped on dog dung the other day -_-. Jiamin says, stepping on dog shit on a dog yr brings gd luck!! wat is it's human dung???????????????????
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