Friday, July 28, 2006 . 10:17 AM
This week has been a time of discovery and revelation of myself..to...myself. Haha..
Some things i've come to accept of myself and some i realised recently.
These few weeks or so, i've kept my smses and replies short. If u know me well, i'm the sort of person who can write a piece of ESSAY when replying someone's sms. Mayb its cos of my big hp, it's so tiring to write on that stupid piece of giant. Wondering if i shd juz changed to a small slim hp like a stunning pink motorola rzar. But the techno addict in me wouldn't allow that!! Im quite sure i'll regret it when i don have an organiser in my hp, or like gigs of storage space, or big screen...
MOney is alittle running short, tho bonus have came in. I think i'm spending way too much on clothes, and i haven't even got the chance to wear some of them! And then my accupuncture at the chinese doc is costing abit oso...bcos each time i go it's 60 bucks, i'm treating my leg and arm. My leg is betta, thank you all for your concern and empathy.
Did i mention that 2 treatment back, doc says the joint that was displaced has been put back to its original position? So i shd feel betta. But 2 days later, my feet still has the tingling sensation. So naturally, obviously , i would get frustrated. So i was frustrated like everyday abt how SICK i am. Evry morning, i woke up with a sucky feeling. SIAN is teh word to use i gez. But i learnt to give thanks to GOd for the new day ahead, and yap i feel betta...
Everytime i go to see the doc, she says i'm really heaty. Ya i can tell from the no of ulcers i have in my mouth...sulk. the ulcers are neverending!! I think i can break some guiness book of ulcers record here. Currently, 6 ulcers in the mouth, one recovering and 5 other who juz sprout out from nowhere from other series of ulcers. She scolded mi for not eating her medicine, which is supposed to get rid of the heatiness, which is one thing that is contributing to the nerve being pressed and my discomfort. Wah lau, pple who know mi, shd know that i really don't like to eat medicine. Esp tablets! I have difficulties swallowing for goodness sake. *sulk* My mom used to say that if i have heart probs when i'm old, i'll prob die from it bcos i donoe how to swallow pills. *sulk* But gd news eh, over the years i learnt to swallow pills. Tablets are limited to maximum of 1cm in diameter, and one at each time. NO TWO TABLETS..NO TWO PILLs. 1 cm looks intimidating enuff. Imagine those vitamins, that comes in even bigger pills than the normal pills doc give..omg..how u swallow that monster. Please don go imagine wat i have to do to the vit pills to eat them. Sighz... btw, i have two med. 3 tablets each and twice a day. That makes the maths add to 12 tablets a day. WAT KIND OF TORTURE IS THAT?!!!!!?! Then naturally, obviously, apparrently, i ended up not eating med at all ...hee..and got scolded lor............... *grumble*
Another thing was that i discovered that i desire to have my own time, my own space. Almost everyday was spent outside, i try very hard to go home earlier so that i have enuff time to do housekeeping,play with rabbit and Quiet time, all before 12.30am. I find that i do not have the time or energy to talk to my parents after i come home, bcos i really want to b just alone in the room (ok with rabbit), some time for myself and myself n myself onli and GOd.....haha..
You can't imagine how happy i was on wed when i had nothing on (except a trip to the chinese doc) and i could go home early!!! Even wed morning when i woke up, i feel happy juzt like that.
And today is friday, and gez wat? I'm not going out!! Happy to go home. Ok lar..i'm going to the doc again actually haha..and then i can go home n rest. Huida says it's rather seldom that i'll actually say i wanna go home n rest. haha..
Ice skating with cell grp tomoro!!! Wonder wat kind of rubbish we would come out with. None of us know how to skate u know!! Gonna bring the cam tomoro. Hee.. cool :p
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