Friday, June 23, 2006 . 10:41 AM
OK let me check my organiser for the schedules k..
I think i'm having such a busy weekend. Everyone wants THIS weekend to do something. Which means i have to pack more activities into the limited 2 days!
Fitting them in was aldy a headache :(
Leaving some activities out was also another headache.
Before that, i have to start with the weekdays. MOnday nites are always reserved for salsa lessons. Tues free (and this tues i was home, bored like hell..) Wednesday i was out exploring the neighbourhood, Thurs was and will be reserved for salsa practice(instructor training me up...the location of training is in bishan....sighz...so far) and fridays for fun fun fun! Today meeting cousin and albert for din.
Sat, usually for cell grp. But it has changed to a bowling session instead. Im not a fan of bowling lor. I don't even knw how to bowl for goodness sake. The very last try at bowling was for my department's get together lunch event, where they 'forced' us to participate in the bowling contest. In the end, we made a great fool out of ourselves and that's how we got our silly fun. So tomoro i'm gonna make a fool out of myself again.
Accapella concert at SP by the nus acappella grp at 7.30. So in b/w bowling to concert, i have to kill time...that means unwise usage of time.
Sunday, church service. And lunch with mei,deying and whoever that will turn up. And finally after that no plans i gez...time to rest and mayb go home mop the floor (show my mom how much i love her yeah)IF i still have any energy left.
And the cycle repeats for the next week. Mon and thurs is busy. Tues,wed and friday OTOT (own time own target..eh i oso knw army slang k..)
But everyone also wans next friday!! I have facial appointment but now instructor says theres a salsa exam next fri, he has asked the examiners from donoe which europe country, i promptly forgotten, to come n assess us..we will get our certificate a few mths later ( i think it's england) and he insisted that i shd go...alrite..that means i have to facial yet another appointment.
So next weekend, ice skating or blading(@ east coast with colleagues)...argh..see i have to choose again...
y can't thinks be nicely spread out?????????
I'm not really complaining lar. I gez it's juz a matter of choice and pirioties. Its gd that i have many activities planned out.. Life doesn't get boring yeah.
But I need a break. I need a damn break from work. I don have to go for holidays. But i need a break.
I have to cancel my plans for kuching trip this july 7th to 16th. Have to plan again, bcos of some issues, i won't be able to go back (together with my frens) so new plannings etc etc..
I think i need a betta pda...my brain is failing me, i can't even rem all these things. I'm gonna have more white hair.damn it.
It was really nice when my dance instructor said he would train me for salsa. That means private one to one with him. Yesterday was the 1st practice. His expectations of me, of cos also inevitably increased. I didn't really expected that. For one, i hate expectations. Bcos i've been thru enuff dance stuffs in the past(sec sch days) to know that expectations kills ur interest....at least for me. Mayb i'm not the type of person who can take stress well..
So while his expectations of me increases, i was left having second tots abt whether i really wanna do this. It means more effort,more time involved, lesser time for myself (esp when tuition starts when holiday ends for my cousin's bro, whom is also my cousin lar duh) I really hate to be restricted. I hate to be restricted by time,place and pple. I don't like the feeling that i have to choose wat i wanna do juz coz i don have enuff time. I hate the feeling of not able to stay out after midnite cos i will have to spend more on transportation home. I hate the fact that some pple tries to control me or restrict me or tell me wat to do. It's my innate instinct to fight against all these. WHen i fight against it, i'll make sure i would free once again. So that probably means destruction towards events and pple....hmm
Sighz...how how how how how how how how.............................
wanna dance..but so scared of commitment..
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