Monday, June 13, 2005 . 2:54 PM
* Everything is bad *
...................................Sunday......................................
I'm gonna start complaining. I feel as if i'm being betrayed again n again by some pple. And bcos it's a bloody blog that everyone can read now or in the future i cannot complain abt them. I shall then complain abt my mom.
Apparently, my aunt n uncle came to visit on sunday. I was around. My mom was relating this FRUSTRATING day where she almost went mad bcos of the amount of rabbit fur all over the place and she called my aunt to complain but she wasn't around. My mom wanted to ask my aunt to get my cousin, Hsiaolin to advise mi to give up the rabbit. BOY i was boiling mad when i heard her RELATING TAT FRUSTRATING incident. WHY?!! Bcos i wasn't the one shd complained to abt MY OWN problem. Bcos i'm not the onli one to know. AND BCOS i knew it onli cos she wanted to complain to my aunt! And she purposely or unintentionally i wnt know, chose to reveal this frustating incident INFRONT of me so that she lets mi know she's v unhappy abt it also. OMG isn't that scheming? And she complained n complained. Brought out the broom that she used to sweep the kitchen floor to show my aunt how much fur there are in the kitchen. I mean ok u made ur pt.Do u have to keep harping abt it ..infront of relatives somemore?!
I was boiling mad. No we didn't quarrel, that's y i was even more mad. I swallowed every shit in and chewed on it. I was brewing the whole day until i think i shd get myself out of this hse if not i'm not gonna let it rest without a fight.
Richard has invited us to laupasat for a Elvis fan singing thingie...so Xiaohui, vanessa and i went. It was quite..erm interested. The pple singing consisted of old folks. But their singing are really really gd, an evidence of wat karaoke singing can do to you after a few yrs. Richard was there cos his colleague is singing. The songs were great but most of them are not Elvis's songs...some other rock n roll songs of that era, n oh boy i don even know most of the songs. It was quite funi whenever the folks dance. It's hilarious but you could see that they were enjoying themselves sooo much that u can't help feeling happie too. There was a bunch of angmohs sitting beside us, who seemed to b making frens with lots of pple there, including us but they didn't really talk to us. haha. I think we need more of such friendliness amongst the locals. And wouldn't it be great if our culture supports dancing? Even old couples dance..wouldn't that b sexy and so interesting. I know i would b so happie. At least u don have to go to studios to dance or clubs to dance, u dance anywhere..everywhere..there was once i watched discovery travels channel and i remembered so vividly the scene..it was in argentina i think. Tango is like their favorite. It's part of the culture. U could dance it real seriously, vigorous but you could also dance it causally. And they showed a couple who juz started dancing tango (slow one) in the evening juz off the side of a street...and they looked so in love, so immersed in their own little dance. wouldn't it nice if we have something like that. Y are asians so conservative with their body movements..
Then we walked to esplanade..chat alittle. Took some silly pics and i'll upload them soon.
....................................MONDAY...................................
In the meantime i'm screwing up my work due to my fanstastic short memories. I think i see myself looking so dreamy everyday. I have no idea wat my brain is doing most of the time. I seemed so disconnected. I'm not going to tell ur wat i screwed up..minor stuffs..but questionable when it involves my professionalism and reputation. This is sad. I think my colleagues are having a bad impression of mi. MY appraisal is going down the drain man.
On a different note i think when research involve animals it's really sad. I haven't felt this sad for a long time. I gez i've become alittle numb. Today a new user brought in 5 (dead) newborn mice and some organs(judging from size they belonged to adult mice). Usually the stuffs that come to my hands are just organs. I've seen embryos ( and they r really quite cute ..) but newborn mice it's the 1st. On the tube that each mice was put inside,soaked with fixation chemicals, were labelled 1st mouse,2nd..so on..and the time it was born. My assumption is 5 newborns were from the same mother. So let's imagine, a mother mouse, pregnant for 21 days or so ( cos hamster's pregnancy is 21 days, mouse and hamster is ard the same that's how i know) and then gave birth, in a span of a few hrs she would have 5 healthy babies to feed, to protect, her mother instinct taking over. BUT sadly i would imagine as the 1st baby is born, he would have been taken away and killed( i do not know how they had killed them) and one by one over the few hrs all dead as they are born. Their eyes are still unopened,ears not developed. They juz remind mi of my baby hamsters! This is so sad. Gez life is really cheap. If u call them life at all. Mayb we would feel betta cos it's not really a life. I donoe wat i'm saying man.
The next step, process the organs in a machine to prepare for later sectioning. So i processed the mice. Tomoro we would b able to embed the 'organs' in wax block and section them anytime. This is the scarry part. These pple who brought the 'organs' do not have experience in ANYTHING so that means i have to teach! God!! Can u imagine sectioning the mice up?!!! I don wan to do it!! :(
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