Friday, May 27, 2005 . 9:55 AM
* Thank God it's Friday again*
Sighz. I feel so pathetic. Always waiting for fridays to come by. And when it does, a week have passed and yet i don't know what i've been doing all this while? Is my life just going to be a continuous cycle of mundane i-don't-know-what-i've-been-doing with the weekends as my focal point of every week?
I think i'm slightly depressed now. I know why. Bcos once again i'm losing my motivation at work. I've been incredibly LAZY. Then finally yesterday Boss kinda found out that im not familar with one of my job scopes, told mi to buck up. Ok he put it in a very nice and non-threatening manner though. Anyway i don't feel gd. Bcos i don't know why i'm losing the motivation and i'm so tired everyday i can't help feeling lazy u know. I think i'm incredibly insecure that any wrong step i take might affect my chances of taking masters u see. OH man. SO lazy yet i want things to go the gd way. Can't get more selfish than that.
We had great plans for tonite. HAD. The original plan was Deying, who wants to bring her indonesian fren who's flying to singapore tonite, to Mohammad Sultan. Cos she wans to see MS so much. SO asked mi along. Asked xiaohui along, my cousin along..and mayb i would bring a guy fren too .. but turned out xiaohui can't make it, cousin oso can't, and the main character which is the indo fren prob oso can't after she reach singapore at 10pm. So it's canceled. Deying and i are going shopping in Orchard instead :p She would leave later to pick her fren up at the airport, i'll meet up with Doris.
You just have to make things interesting for urself.
Walking the tree-top walk tomoro with xiaohui n gang.
Sunday,xiaohui having bbq at her place.
So i'm pretty occupied. Good. I'm only worried that life is not interesting enuff. Hai i'm depressed. I need to look gd feel gd ..i think i need more sleep. Period.
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