Friday, May 13, 2005 . 11:19 AM
* Lonely Souls *
How do u define loniness? Wat makes you lonely? The lack of friends? Or the lack of certain things?
I realise many of us are loners..at least i'm being more n more of one. We can't have friends with us all the time. Each of us have our own life to live, own worries to settle, own schedules. So we adapt. We all grow used to being alone.
I don't know if it's my job or is it cos i'm grower more adultish, but it seemed like i spend everyday connecting with my inner thoughts more than i talk to other pple. I even have to eat lunch by myself all the time because everyone is too busy and have their own schedule to rush or their own experiements. Once in a while u eat alone is fine. But after doing so for quite some time, i tink something just isn't right. Then sometimes i join the pple from the other labs who happened to be eating at the pantry..small talk with them. In fact i small talk with most of my users to keep myself sane. I really love crowd. Im happiest when our whole lab gets together and have lunch, al lthe jokes and interactions, i love it.
Yicai thinks the higher you climb the more isolated you are, the more loner u get. When i was eating in the canteen alone, i'm not the onli one alone. Most of the pple at the staff section are alone. And i recognise some of them as my ex professors..it muz b this job. My boss used to get alone too, not with us. I think he got damn sick of it, he started joining us for lunch. And that doesn't include me because they always eat much later than me. Once in a while i'll join them altho i wish i can join them everyday but my stomach cannot take it. It's gd that he's joining us. B part of the team isn't it. It's always gd to get closer to your boss esp one that is so nice and understanding.
I used to b quite bothered with the fact that i don have much of a social life to speak off when i start working..recently, i began to like being alone actually. Everynite, i would nua in my room, on the nuaing corner i set up for me and any visitors like yicai to nua. ANd of cos Angel loved to take the corner of the wall there. So with music on, angel by my side and magazine in front of me, that to me now is an enjoyment. I donoe wat the hell is wrong with me. ANyway i'm too brain dead to think....mayb that's y i rather juz nua and not use my brain at all. At least i have my bun to keep mi company ...so adorably cute.
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