Thursday, April 07, 2005 . 5:17 PM
* The way things are now*
Congrats to Jen who has landed herself a job that she's satisfied with. With a rather impressive position somemore haha.
Well, u know things are going great for me now and yeah i'm talking abt my career. And i've got to thank God for all the blessings that he gave me, even tho i really don think i deserve it.
From giving me this job to the present..no doubt it wasn't all smooth going and all but compared to many pple out there i know my situation wasn't that bad...No doubt i was quite stressed and alittle traumatised by lab environment..bcos it's so different from wat i've known till then (office environment) and truthfully i'm not like a very strong woman haha. I juz can't take it that pple are gossiping behind mi or wat....but now that 5 mths have passed and i'm beginning to take things easier.
And i was given opportunities that many pple out there would die for but i juz got it, right there when i didn't even do anything to deserve it. It's got to be..either my boss is a saint or God has really put me here for the right reason. I would envision a HUGE obstacle infront of me if i wanna pursue a higher degree? After all i didn't have honours...it's so much harder. Well it's possible to do a partime masters while i'm working here, and i don have to pay a cent even. But bcos i didn't have honours, i had to use my work experience and a paper or 2 to earn the right to do masters here. So i've got a damn supportive boss on my side, which makes half the battle won actually. He kept encouraging me to go ahead learn more techniques..and then when the chance comes along i could help out in something n eventually they will come out with a paper and i'll get my name on it, then i can do my masters.....and i tot that would take pretty long but u know wat? He juz recently got mi involved in something that he's looking at, which is Rheumatoid arthiritis..well i'm juz doing some simple things for him..but seemed that we've got some interesting finding..and he wanna do more and he gave mi the opportunity to b involved, he actually asked mi to b involved...so he's like supporting mi ALL the way..which means if they ever come out with a paper(which would not b a mth's or 2's time...) my name would b on it. And tadaaa.....masters masters masters...oh yeah baby. I didn't expect anything like that to come my way and so soon. U have no idea wat a ride it has been for me, exhilarating that is..
Everyone knows wat a bum i am rite? I'm like such a well known slacker. I do wat are neccessary and nothing extra. Im obviously not the sort who would work OT if i'm not paid u know.. BUT...i realised i would do willingly..for my research...for my masters. I don mind devoting my time,my weekends to my research. I juz wan to get that damn masters. And when i have that goal in life, i feel like a total different person. It's no longer things like i'm studying onli cos i don wan to flunk my exams...and i wan to graduate. I'm gonna study and do all these for my own. It juz feels different. It's as if i can see my sweat n blood on a paper, and my name on it. It juz feels so totally different. And i'm amused....that i don mind slogging...........
Mayb if i can i wan to go on to PHD and b called a Dr...woohoo..hahahaa....*daydream*
I've even stopped counting down to the weekends. It's either i'm tooo tired and i onli think abt sleeping everyday or i'm driven by my PASSION for the research.
I don actually think i would wan to stay in this field all my life. I juz don wan to regret not doing masters when i have the chance to. Juz like i kinda regret alittle teeny weeny bit that i didn't go on n do honours..It's more for acaedemic achievements. I don wan to look back at my life and curse myself for not going for it, and i'll be satisfied that i did. Even if i were to become a hsewife or watever that's irrelevant to wat i'm doing now in the future, it's something that i can b proud of myself (and God gave mi the chances to leh...) and nothing is more fulfilling than seeing ur own acomplisments rite?...nobody would b happie working n working and not see any result/achievements lor..
Alright i'm done..i'm juz happie. I don care if some pple think i'm nuts or wat..or don understand y do i wan to work so hard to something that i may not use..i'm juz happie :D
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