Thursday, February 24, 2005 . 2:09 PM
** Exhausted **
I was in a restaurant with a couple of pple and i know there's a beautiful beach nearby. So Yicai and i excused ourselves and went exploring and we found the beautiful place. The beach stretched long and wide, white sands which doesn't stick to our feet and amazing light turquoise seawater glittering under the sun. We were so excited. We ran from one end of the beach to the other end, and Yicai was nearer to the sea water and he got pretty wet. Then we were laughing and chatting till we reached the other end of the beach, went up a small hill to god knows where. And i looked beside me and it's no longer Yicai there but i think my cousin, Hsiaolin.
FLASH.
We had an accident. Hsiaolin was badly hurt. When i woke up i was lying on the hospital bed with an incredible steel rod inserted into my back and it extended to my left arm. I could feel the excruciating pain and inability to bend my arm. And in my subconcious state, i know i have to suffer for a long time before this aliend rod would b taken away from my body. It would become part of me for a long time. ANd this pain...i can barely feel my hand. Some relative was around. She mentioned that i can't possibly work like this. And all i could think of it the pain and my arm. She continued talking abt how i shd b reporting this to my workplace. And finally i was able to listen and agreed i should b reporting to them. A part of me was happy tat i have the best excuse in the world to not go to work. But the long period of suffering...........should i even b happy?????
And then i woke up. And i wished i could report sick today. But in the end i didn't anyway.
I'm so tired. I think i lack so much sleep that even sleeping for 12 hrs for 2 days during the weekends won't help me to catch back wat i've lost. How can i go to church like that. Everyday i'm so tired. I need the sleep. And last weekend i've slept v early considerably. I slept at 12 to 1 am during the weekends. I really wished i had gone and got an mc instead.
I have a new resolution from today onwards. I'm going on a fenzy saving attempt. I'm gonna save as much as i can bcos i wan to embark on some fantastic holiday and i betta start planning aldy!!! YIppe!!! I love NUS. At least NUS gives mi $300 subsidy for oversea travels!! Where shall i go? Korea? Japan? Taiwan??Muaritus???????????????? mayb bring my mom along too. Give her a little hols. YIPPPEEE!!
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