Monday, January 31, 2005 . 3:31 PM
* Confused and lost and forlorn *
I hoped i spelt forlorn right. Been MIA for some time?
1) Cos my pc kanna the Trojan virus couldn't get it to work for like days
2) Finally my bro was kind enuff to help mi fix the pc,got rid of the virus and other rubbishy spy wares and even more nonsense that i didn't know how to get rid of cos i'm a pc idiot and somehow he got rid of my internet tooooooo woooowwww
3) No internet, no blogging gettit?
4) i realised internet is pretty important to me..i can't even do internet banking for goodness sake.
5) Have decided i shall reformat my pc totally to prevent any other problems and hope it restores my internet cos i've tried every other way none of them work and of cos i've got Deying to help mi with reformatting....i'm an idiot..hai
6) Friday i had off so wasn't working again. Again i worked for 4 days. This month is really shoick man. Woohoo. But my offs were uneventful, nothing great happened mostly i stayed at home. Deying was supposed to go out with mi on friday but then she fell very sick so was cancelled. And u know everyone is either in sch or working i was resigned to staying at home which is not that bad lar i admit i need the nuaing and the rest i could get. But when online on my bro's pc and then chatted with this guy i got to know thru my work orientation? And he was planning to zao work cos boss not ard wahhaa so he & his fren and mi decided to go ikea. Cos they wanna go i juz tagged along. Y? Cos ikea is one of my fav place. Oh man the chicken wing at the cafe is yuuuuuuuuuummm fantastic!! Muz try man no matter how full u r u'll def love the wings. So went shopping blah blah and then i've oso kindadecided i'll invest in some little money to revamp my room like wat my cousin did. I'm juz gonna make my room abit nicer. Cos my mom is giving mi hell abt the rabbit again. I'm so irritated. And she wanna move the rabbit out to where my pc table is now? So i got to move my pc into my room. So might as well take the chance to revamp and if possible throw some tables away... :p Then i went to the fong seng pet shop, the one that i've described selling alot of rabbits and they are all the gd breeds and so damn expensive. Kinda on gd terms with the guy that tends the shop. ALmost on personal terms u get wat i mean? Always let mi touch the $500 worth of rabbit. Aww!!! MAN!! so cool so cute!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so tempted!! I saw this really cute one. Gosh i'm salivating. My mom would kill me!!!
7) ANd my mom is giving mi alot of probs. Obviously she's not v happie with something and i donoe wat but she's throwing her temper on mi and my dad. SHe's picking on my rabbit and my bf and everything. ANd i began to wonder if my life is really that screwed up or wat she can pick so many things to talk abt...i wonder if she would b happier if one day i gave up my rabbit and this bf. Then how come i have to give them up juz cos she don like them? I'm beginning to feel as if my life ain't in my hands at all. I mean besides my life being in God's protective hands, i've absolutely no control over it bcos pple tend to control it for me? Like my mom? Why shd anyone have the right to go tell someone else how they shd live their lives? Muz i get get a guy to b bf juz cos my mom will like him? Or i shdn't keep a pet cos she doesn't wan it...when is it going to b my own life.....and then the very next day she's totally fine aldy. Wat the hell. I hate this. I don fancy being hurt like this and the very next day she's totally fine as if nothing ever happened!!!! It's my life ur talking abt here haloo??!!
8)I've got to figure out how to put my rabbit outside in the living room
9)I feel like i've got lots of things i wanna fix and i wanna improve on..like my family, like my dad's emotional needs etc..aiyah i won't elaborate lar..alot of things. And i'm so damn confused as on how i'm gonna do that and i donoe wat i shd b working on 1st. One at a time i told myself. But knowing my impatient and sometimes rather perfectionist attitude i wish i coud deal with all of them at one go and set everything right asap. Hai..the flesh is so weak. I wish i could have done more things.
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