Monday, August 23, 2004 . 7:01 PM
+ Letting go... +
HAI... this muz b the earliest earliest time i ever ever blogged. WHY? Cos...i'm upset with life. Hahaa...ok i sound damn rubbish.
HAI. This morning i really didn't wan to go to work. Feeling uncomfy + my dad is going to b left alone at home + i wanna see my rabbit + i'm lazy + ++++++ so many excuses...BUT i woke up so early and then it's so seldom, almost impossible that i'm not tired at all...so i decided not to forgo this chance of earning another $50I was so worried sick for my dad can!! I donoe if he can handle being at home alone..wat if he falls? wat if he suddenly got a heartattack?????!! I tried to call him like 3 times in the whole day but he didn't pick up the phone...wah lau i almost die of worry. But turn out he's fine lar...so THANK GOD. I think i'm getting more and more paranoid over everything single thing there's out there that i can worry abt. I'm so worried that i can burst, explode and i wan to scream to God, " Get mi out of this office!!!!"
Seriously....i'm really worried sick. And not juz today. I'm like worried everyday when i'm working. Worried if my rabbit is going to b fine etc....now my dad...hai....
My mom has been nagging n nagging abt my rabbit....i'm seriously considering letting go of Angel...(sobz...) trying to find and ask ard if anyone can take angel in. I can't bear to let him go..I always feel as if i'm gonna choke whenever i think of coming home and i don see Angel anymore.....how.....my mom can't stand him always bitting things..and my family is so uncoperative?? They see the rabbit coming etc and going to chew on something and they still do nothing and then later on blame mi and the rabbit for everything? Wah lau... I donoe wat to say liao lar...they are all driving mi nuts. I can barely feel at home. I feel so stressed out everytime i let Angel out cos they are always picking opportunities to pick on angel and mi!!!!!?!!! hai........
Wat shd i do................................wat shd i do.............
Huijuan( the gal who brought mi into AIA..from life sciences too) has gotten a perm job. At national cancer centre. So shes' leaving this week. So shoick. I wonder when i'll get a perm one. i've got to b more proactive!!!!!!!
I'm meeting xl tonite at HV to chit chat...long time no see aldy.
k gtg !!! stomachache!
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