Tuesday, June 22, 2004 . 9:48 PM
+ One of my hamsters has passed away +
Lady has passed away this morning. When i woke up at 12pm she was aldy gone. I've kinda prepared myself for her possibly passing away since yesterday. I was cleaning the cages and i saw Lady lying motionlessly as if she was dead. But she wasnt. That doesn't mean it's gd news. I tried putting her on her feet but she couldn't even stand properly, one of her legs kept giving way and there she falls on her side again. She wouldn't eat nor drink. I know it's time for her to leave. I even contemplated killing her so that she don have to go thru so much pain but i just couldn't do it. How can i??
Lady hasn't had a very gd life. Weeks after she was born, we realised that she couldn't stop scratching herself, esp her belly area and her skin was red with irritation. I didn't have any idea y she was like this? The other hamsters are fine. She couldn't stop scractching and soon her underside was bare,furless and red. Later i found out from the net that she's prob allergic to soemthing..but wat? I had to find out wat? In the end after much observations, i think she was alergic to her own urine? yesh..i have no idea y. My mom didn't like the idea of bringing her to the vet, cos it would cost alot..like 50+ even. And i always tot its juz temporary. I used proper wood shavings instead of the cheap ones..i tried so many ways, sometimes she seemed better..fur growing back and then soon after that she would start to scratch and lose fur again. Hers was such a sad and painful life. Mayb we shd have put her to sleep earlier, then she wouldn't have to go thru all these. Mayb it's also my fault for not bringing her to the vet when she started having these problems. I always tot that the vet can't do anythign as well cos they would also ask us wat we think the problem is , wat is causing the allergy? BUT hell i donoe!! Anyway, situation got really bad this yr. Soon Lady was scratching so much that there were dried blood on her skin...and then this yr she started having absecess, lumps growing after obsessive scratching of her skin,bleeding and regrowth and then damage again. IT was a really painful sight to see her. I wasn't too upset today cos i've known that she's gonna go soon, it's not shocking to me. I haven't been close to her, cos she was always so sick she doesn't like pple to hold her.
Now looking back at some of the photos i took of the hamsters while they were babies, memories of her came back. She was such a beautiful baby. 4 babies, 3 white and 1 black. We could always identify Lady from the other 2 white hamsters cos of her particularly blacker line on her back and it was really beautiful hai. Too bad she didn't grow up beautiful and she had to suffer. Lady never grew to a hamster's full size. She had always looked like a baby..small..frail. Lady was supposed to be given to my cousin as "wife" for their male hamster but she never left our hse cos she was so sick. Hers was really such a sad life. I wished...i wished i had given her a better life...
T_T
I buried her at the piece of empty land behind my neighbourhood, near to the site of where my previous hamster was buried. She would be remembered forever. Gd Bye Lady..
Taken when they were prob 2 weeks old. Lady is the white one on the left. She could b easily identified from the other 2 white hamsters(one MIA from this pic) by her extra dark line on her back.Click to enlarge pic. 
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