Friday, June 11, 2004 . 1:04 AM
+ A litle depressed +
Somehow i hate myself sometimes. I hate the way i am now. Like how easily i flare up or get irritated. I'm like losing frens ..some mayb not worth keeping anyway. I'm talknig abt lawrence. We kinda fell out and i don intend to start toking to him. In fact, it didn't really bother mi at all except that i was damn irritated with him. Tat was prob like 3 weeks ago.
Next, yongzhi today. Asked him for a flavour..help mi book the badminton courts in sch for tomoro cos i can't bk it anymore. He done it..and he had to b sacrastic and said ," need i remind u if they check and i'm not there then they would suspend all my booking privileges"...i was like wat?! WAT are u trying to tell mi here? Then if that's teh case i won't wan him to bk for mi anymore ..i won't drag him down that's it. Y phrased it like that huh? Looks like he's pissed with mi somehow? And i'm pissed with the way he said things...now im angry with myself for flaring up...i shdn't..i did apologise but no replies from him. So i gez i really pissed him off for some reasons which i donnoe!
Yeah..angry with myself for being so "ugly" and i'm angry with these pple who gets pissed out of nowhere???
OH well..
Gez no one is perfect and i shd learn to love.
Anywya..today went to jurong east to sign up with recruit express for temp jobs..don think they would call anyway. The woman's face seemed to tell mi so haha.
And then walked ard with QL till 5+ and went back to clementi to meet deying for swimming at xiaohui's hse. This xh ah..when we were reaching her place she told us the breaking news that she was still in orchard can!! And she told us to go up to her hse 1st etc..i mean like it's so damn weird? like we gonna turn up at her place and say hi to her grandparents and say oh..we have come to borrow ur swimming pool? haha. But well had a quite enjoyable small chat with deying at her balcony overlooking the great sceneries and skyline of s'pore. Then went swimming and she onli appeared at 7pm..hai..we didn't really swim today. We were just exploring her swimming pool. Very nice. It's very shoick..for like prob more than half an hr we were swimming alone in the pool...then we went for a steam bath. Basically put 3 of us in a small room with steam coming out and then flood the whole room and u almost feel as if u could suffocate in there. I think we spent 30 mins in there..in the end it felt really gd actually, after u've got used to the limited amt of air haha. NIce man..we shd do it again..then jaccuzi, last stop haha..shoick!! damn shoick!!
yaps that's all for today haha..terribly tired and i hv no idea y..
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