Friday, May 21, 2004 . 10:33 PM
+ Im giving HELLO and Bloggerbot a TRY +
Gave Angel carrot yesterday and he was enjoying his "prize" under the "aircon" from my fridge :p Aww Cutie!! 
JUST PLAIN CUTE..if onli my floor is not so ...mosaic?
Yappies..The 2 photos were uploaded using HELLO/Bloggerbot. IT allows u to directly upload the photos onto ur blog entries, which makes life alittle less complicated. But, will take u a while to figure this thing out. It also allows ur peers to upload photos to ur blogs etc but i think i'll leave that function n stuffs out lar..But take note, this uploading business is onli gd for uploading the pics onto ur entries, not to those pics u wan to always remain on ur blog, that will still require gd-old fashion host sites hmmm.
Isn't Angel sooooooo CUTE?!!! Awww!!! Something bad kinda happened to him last nite and it was all my stupid fault! :( I kinda lossened up his collar abit cos i was thinking he gained abit of weight recently and i didn't wan him to b suffering or in discomfort frm the collar, soon after that i put him back to the toilet. Feels kinda embarased everytime i have to mention his "home" :p And that's fault no 1. Fault no 2: why didn't i check up on him earlier?! I was busy blogging away and tv, when i went to check on him b4 i went to sleep, i saw him sitting quietly in a corner to the toilet and i went to pat him and he didn't stretch out his head like usual, he just didn't move and saw his mouth moving. In the end, i was shocked to find out that he wanted to bite the collar and unfortunately for him,he managed to get the collar stuck behind his lower teeth. He couldn't get it out and it was pulling his the behind of his neck get it? I lossened up the collar and freed him. Sooo poor thing!! ANd it's all his owner's stupid idea that caused him harm :((( I think he was quite badly shaken by it. I mean animals can't take stress or sudden change of something, they gets stressed up too easily. I kept him company for like an hr +, just stroking him, comforting him. And today, he acted weird, he was so quiet? Like sitting in a corner the whole day, makes mi feel that he's kinda gloomy or something..usually he would run ard, poke his nose into everything..today he just sat there the whole day? Kinda worried man..hope he's fine.
Another bad news...i called my mom today. She's been in kuching for 2 weeks. She described to mi the "interoggation" that my relatives put her thru the day she arrived. WHen i heard that, i felt damn pissed off and super irritated! MY 3rd aunt can't cope with taking care of my dad and my ill grandpa. And apparently all the sisters (my aunts, dad's sis) were all DISHING out suggestions or rather their SOLUTIONS to probs..saying my mom shd have returned earlier..and how we shdn't dump her husband her for them to take care, after all it's her husband. And to my poor brother? they said kids have the responsibilities to take care of their dad..we shdn't dump him here. The idea is roughly like this lar ok.. Like i said, i was damn pissed. WHAT?! We dumped him?! In the 1st place, i strongly objected to my mom bringing my dad back to m'sia. What were the reasons for returning? The relatives asked us to return cos 1) Cheaper medication fees (that's true..damn true) 2) there are more of them there to take care of him,lessen her burdens 3) lower standard of living.
They wan this they wan that...did i say i was dumping my dad? Did my mom say she was dumping her husband? It was their idea to bring my dad back. It was their bloody idea to suggest that they wan to take care of him. I objected totally to it. Now they are saying we are dumping dad to them...look man...they r not helping at all. Only my eldest aunt helped out, the others? They just tok..U know it's so easy to just talk? ANyone can do it. BUT who are the ones who really wan to help us? ALl that family help one another crap? Did they do enuff? We don owe them anything, so i don expect them to help us all the time...but since they wan my dad to b back then do wat they wanted to do ok..after putting us thru so much stress, my mom can't adapt to the place and everything..and kids being seperated from parents and now they come n interoggate my mom? wat is this? Can't they give her a break?
My heart aches everytime i have to picture my mom being interrogated by them? This is just not rite lor. And pardon mi..even if they are my elders i still have to say this..all they know is how to talk. They are so educated, so highly paid professionals yet they think like peanuts. it's easy to sit there dishing out advices on oh wat we shd do. It's so damn easy and everyone knows that. EVen i know wat shd b done, wat makes it frustrating is they never ever consider our position. It's so easy to suggest this n that, but let mi tell u...unless u are ever in our situation, u jolly well DONOE wat the hell is really going on in our lives can. And that is the truth. It's so easy to say " oh u all shd sell ur hse now, get the money ..." I'm telling u it's peanuts talking..sell the hse? then go stay where? IN kuching? We have to get a smaller hse rite? ANd the hse can't sell at a gd price now? To get a 4 room flat, i have to have a job rite? if not where to get hse loan huh? And u think selling the hse can solve every prob rite? If anythign happens to my dad again the medical expenses is alot do anyone of u know that? We must have some money to back up u know...and my bro's aust uni fees? The relatives said they would lend us money for his studies...haha look..they r not mentioning it anymore! So sell the hse...buy a small hse..- sch fees-daily expenses-backup medical fees- possible physio or nursing home fees...lets see how much we have left...Did i mention we owe the relatives some huge amt of money as well? I donoe how things could just b simplified by selling the hse...it's a solution everyone know..it's a step to take..but it's not a solution ok...there is no solution at all. Onli God can provide. And my peanuts $2000 pay a mth can cover not much. U go do the caluclations lar..can't save much... My mom is thinking of bringing my dad home after july. I vote for that too. I don need other pple to take care of my dad. We can take care of him ourselves. We will never abandon family. I don wan to b angry with my relatives. I'm just really upset and hurt and felt so betrayed. I donoe wat else they said. But watever it is..i don like the idea that MY PARENTS has to stay under other pple's roofs and look at other pple's faces. Coming back will be the best ever decision made.
Hsiaolin keep tis to urself..i don wan ur parents to know. I don wan to worry them.And they prob will stand on the aunts' side :( Just keep it to urself.
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