Sunday, May 23, 2004 . 12:21 AM
+ Feeling....alone? +
White rose is so pure..so clean. 
Nah just feel as if there's nothing much to do. I can't afford to spend too much on playing too. Life is so contradicting? And i realised i'm complaining way too much abt things i gez...life is nevr going to b straight n smooth but i make every thing sound like it's disaster striking :p The prob now is having too much time and having a prob of spending it fruitfully? Totally turned my brain inside out to think of things i could do..u know interesting meaningful things but hmm donoe wat i can do leh..If i still don go explore something interesting i might find that when i turned 30, i would still b havign the same boring life..accomplished nothing. I don wan that!! I was to explore when i'm still young!!
Or hmm i shd really turn to painting my room? hee..Anyway, tot of taking up dancing, or inline skating ( but need to buy blades man...no $$) or cardio mix ( which i will take up soon)or mayb cooking classes with the aunties? haha..might as well use the avaliable time to learn something. Learning dancing has been a long dream of mine that i wanted to fulfill...hopefully i get to really get down to it this time!! Waiting for bernice...
And then there is a bad news. I might not b able to go bangkok after all. I wanted to see if we could go in 2nd week of june, but xl could onli make it on the 3rd week and yicai even worse, 4th week. Bleah..at this rate i think i might have started work and still not gone Bangkok..so prob can't go..unless my future company is sent by God, and gives mi leaves anytime i wan woooah! So see how lar..
Today, Hsiaolin came to my hse to hangout. Just chatting away and talking abt our relatives. I think i shall cancel everything i've said abt them lar..I don wan to hold any grudges. I'm kinda sick of family dispute. And since they are family it's not gd to b talking bad abt them, don wan to do wat they best do :p Spent the late noon painting each other's nails BLOOD RED. And then kinda gave up later..cos the paint was like out of the fingernails, smeared onto the skin, and tried to remove the smeared parts with the nail remover? the painted fingernails kanna the remover ...man...this is so frustrating!! Then the paint dries too fast too. haha..My hand looks like it's bleeding now, a witch's hands! Damn cool if it's for photos :p
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