Thursday, April 29, 2004 . 2:27 AM
* HOw i've BeeN Spending My Free Time *
alritey..lets tok abt mon. MON i was GRUMPY. COs i woke up and i figured that i have nothing to do..and i don wish to do anything or even my brains to work one single muscle :p Anyway just feel as if i went thru a state of identity crisis. So exams are over..now wat? It seems totally uncomfortable that i'm so damn free!!!! i've got nothing to do!!! NOthing to look forward to..nothing to plan for? hmm..So my mind was a blank. It's like asking myself again and again wat am i going to do now..and the ans came back " i don know!!" It felt so unsettling..like my feet is not touching the grd..never really felt like this b4.. so i was going cranky and frustrated that here i am having so much time but yet donoe how to spend it fullfillingly. Most of my frens are either in attachment (working) or having exams (ntu..haha..) or really working! man...then it just hit me hard...mayb i shd just find a job n start working..cos i'm aloone anyway..noone can accompany me anyway.. ANyway went out with xiaoying on mon..walking ard shopping. Well at laest we did something, that was a pretty gd start haha although actually both of us were pretty sian of not knowing wat to do.
TUES i stayed at home and i think my holiday gear is picking up. Learning how to nuai..and like nuaiing..Just simply enjoy not doing anything. Pretty gd..Deying poped by my hse in the evening after work, brought her vanilla vodka she bought for me to try.. she's so nuts abt it now. We mixed it with coke and drank it.. I think i'm such a super lousy drinker. I mean i barely took a few sips and i could feel all the effects of alcohol kicking in...I don feel high at all..never ..just felt as if all my blood pools at my feet :p and my head feels heavy and then my whole body goes red. By the end of the nite i was like lying on my sofa with a pounding headache and an almost-gonna-pop-out-of-my-chest-heart-rate. So there..wat's the morale of the story? Can't drink then don drink...wat's wrong with u..wanna toruture urself isit? But hey the alcohol pretty much put me to sleep early and i had a very gd sleep. Haven't had a gd sleep since exams started..yesh exams gave me nitemares. I'm serious. I even had a recuring dream!! ANd that was damn freaky..can u imagine dreaming abt the same thing every nite? Actually i was dreaming of the same place and me having the same identity in the dreams, just that wat happened is different each time. So it was as if i'm looking at the events of the person that is me, in the dream..everynite! hai..anyway all those are gone liao.
WED. Today! i went to xiaoying's place with qingli for a badminton session! I enjoyed myself today, although i was bit reluctant to get myself out of my hse ( the after exam syndrome again...) and we even baked our own cookies!! MAN!! ANyone who KNOWS me know that i can't cook well and i never bake..so this is the 1st time i baked since sec 2 econs class!! And it was pretty easy cos xiaoying bought the pre-mix and all we have to do is just add an egg and butter and the mix and mix well ..viola!! Put them on the trays and put it into the oven!! It's so easy!! It's like baking for dummies haha..then we get to enjoy the cookies after that without the pain of real baking :p Today was fun..just spending some lazy evening with them :) Thanz xiaoying for everything!
But something really spoiled my day. while i was on my way to xiaoying's place my mom gave me a call from home and she was super mad. She said that the rabbit bit her karaoke set's wire and the set can't work anymore and she demanded that i settle the rabbit..meaning i do something abt the rabbit, give it away..throw it away...watever u know..And i was damn irritated. The wire got bitten cos when the rabbit first came we didn't know that it likes runnign to the back of the tv and the table..and he managed to bite the wire. These recent months we aldy blocked the entrance so tat the rabbit can't go in..and my mom wanna get rid of the rabbit just cos it bit the wire back then??! huh? So irritated. I mean is it so hard to have a pet?? IS it?!! I don wanna get rid of rabbit...i like rabbit! Is it so hard to have a pet huh?? Now my mom threathens me to get rid of the rabbit b4 she leaves for kuching. Hai..i'm really very sian..damn frustrated with her. The bloody wire can b replaced! hai...give me some peace lar..leave me alone lar..hai...y can't she consider how much i love the rabbit...hai..The more pple tell me that i shd give the rabbit away..the more i would wan to keep the rabbit and the more i wanna prove to the WHOLE world that my rabbit is different!! I shall not complain anymore ever..
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