Friday, February 27, 2004 . 1:10 AM
::: Not sleeping yet :::
I'm not sleeping cos i was studying for my immunology CA tomoro. I think it's information overload man..really confused esp with the stuffs included in the practicals.. it's ok. Although the CA is 30%, i'm gonna grad anyway!! haha!! I can't stand myself..
" Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life and i will dwell in the house of the LOrd forever" @ Psalm 23:6
Something from my quiet time last nite. Goodness and love...i felt as if i havent tasted real happiness for a long long time. Things has been so upsetting for me recently or mayb i'm getting really pessimestic. The verse just touched me somehow. God was trying to remind me that i could feel joy even though things are not very gd.
Anyway, i had cramps today so i slept the whole noon and didnt' manage to really study for my CA. My mom wanted me to bring the clothes out from the washing machine to sun them after i come back from sch at 12pm..but having cramps? sun the clothes?? That was the LAST thing on my mind. ANd i was like heck the clothes n studying i'm going to bed. As i was suffering in bed, i was thinking y is it that my mom always ask me to do the hsework? My bro is so free u know..i don see her asking him leh? Am i supposed to feel honoured that she trusts me with all the impt stuffs( like sunning the clothes...)?? I'm just really unhapy with her lar..after everything that she had put me thru recently. I feel as if that without me, who would go and do her stuffs...and who is appreciating me? I'm the one who bothers to wash the dishes after meals (not my bro), sun the clothes, although i don do much but i at least do something. Wat abt my bro? Y is the workload so unbalanced? Yet amazingly i'm the one she always have bad things to say abt ...wat i picky ah...i calculative over who do wat ah...huh?! yicai thinks it's the way i tok to her, makes her defensive and i'm not sending the rite message across. I gez so lor. I can't help feeling very angry whenever i tok to her..
Oh well..enuff of my complainings... oh yeah! she complained abt my rabbit again!!! I can't stand it anymore..i'm gonna get the cage i was talking abt since she's always comlpaining that the rabbit dirtied her toilet. I think it would gek her to death Hee. So evil opps.
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