Wednesday, February 25, 2004 . 11:55 AM
::: Feeling quite shitty :::
I just read my cousin's blog and i realised she just got herself a job!! Really amazing man...she went for so many interviews, and she mentioned that she screwed up this one but the next day the boss called her himself and told her that she's hired! So excited for her! Wat's more perfect that having accepted at the place u wanna work at?? haha...i think i would have a gloomy time looking for a job when i grad. hai.. Just a week ago there was a career fair in nus. I went with my frens hoping to check out some places where we could work in the future. It was disappointing. There wasn't many exhibitions regarding life sciences. onli 2. One was Astar, quite a prestigous place to work in and obviously such places won't wan pple like me. We tried asking the pple abt the min requirements to work in that place anyway. Ha...2nd upper honours. Ha should have seen the look on our faces. There was another one DSO international research. I looked thru their bronchure and i think i would really love working there...there are so many departments that i could apply there...and it seemed like a great place. I didn't ask wat's the min requirement. Just felt like im disaappointed enuff..don dash all my hopes here pls. Anyway i just somehow felt like a useless bum. A graduate that nobody wants...cos i didn't have honours...WTH. 4get it..There's another career fair at suntec from the 3rd to 7th of march. I heard this one would have lots of life sci institutes there so yippeee...haha. It's at level 6. ANyone who are interested do go..and there are many talks avaliable everyday. I think nobody expect me would go rite?Cos i'm the onli one who is graduating this yr :(
ANyway, i haven't been updating my blog and all my recent entries seemed weird isn't it? haha. K i was thinking if i shd keep the rabbit or sell it or give it away etc. After these few days i think i've grown pretty attached to the rabbit and that means i prob won't b giving it away liao lar. I donoe if i shd get the cheap cage at JP, the rabbit seemed pretty happy running ard in my toilet, if i caged it up it would b so torturous to him. I haven't gave him a name yet. It's always such a headache thinking of names for pets. I had a horrid time thinking of names for my hamsters when they were born and there were 4 of them!!! Headache!!
My mom has gotten herself a job at the tiger plaster..err actually i have no idea...at taman jurong there lar..as a packaging worker...She started work since last week lor. She works from 8 to 6pm ah. At 1st when she told me abt the job i was like huh ? y do u wan to work for!? Just stay home n enjoy urself lar..But she said she's happier working. Then fine, if u enjoy working then go ahead. Seriously i think noone in the world in the rite mind ,except her and the aunties at the workplace would enjoy working....if it's me i would hae found ways and ways to sneak off..cut down my working hrs, be late and not caught etc. She could start work at latest 9am u know? But she's there b4 8am. Can u believe it?!! If i were her, u would see me there at 8.59am :p That's not it. She finishes work at 6pm but the worker could choose to work till 8pm if they wan to. And gez wat she has been doing to me? She worked till 8pm. hai...she said it's enjoyable to work and pretty fun so she don mind doing till 8? ok....wat abt my dinner?? Do i sound evry selffish?? i was just thinknig that she could cm hm early then come home lar..it's not as if she doesn't have kids to care for u know. The reason she left kuching and came back to s'pore was to take care of her kids isn't it? Wat's the difference now??? My lunch and dinner i have to settle myself again...she doesn't have time to do hsework..etc etc..so many things..and she's been putting me down with very mean things she said. I'm really quite pissed with her. IF she doesn't have any encouraging things to say i would prefer her to shut up and not say a word for everything that comes out onli serve to destroy pple. She made me feel inferior and useless. And i'm mad at myself for being useless...although coming out from my mom's mouth i shd take it with a pinch of salt. But i really can't help believing wat she said sometimes when i think abt them..and then i would feel very upset, hurt and angry when am i wat she said...i'm sorrie my blog seemed to b recording all the sad stuffs instead of gd and happy moments. I wish i had more happy moments.
I zao sch completely today somemore. 2lects but i zao them all. Felt quite bad abt not going cos i've not been going for some time liao. SOmemore after that i always have to borrow xiaoying's notes to copy. Feeling really bad abt it lar. I shd reap wat i sow. Y shd xiaoying always lend mi wat she copied and abit waste her efforts in going to lect. I have a CA on fri but i think that's pretty a gone case for me cos there are so many thigns to study and i don think i can ever finish studyign them lor..not to mention i didn't go for 2 lects for that mods recently and i donoe wat's going on.OK DIE. Nvm i'm gonna grad soon anyway HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA The hell with CAs!!!! The hell with Exams!!! The hell with NUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yiiiiiiiiiiipppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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