Friday, February 27, 2004 . 10:48 PM
::: Feeling happier! :::
Ha i've made great progress with my mom today man. But b4 i tell u all abt that im gonna start with wat happened in the day. I didn't go for morning lect cos there was CA at 12.30 and i studied late into the nite so couldnt' wake up. The CA was err quite bad. After that went for bible study. The bible study was very gd. We are launching into a 21-day devotion thingie that would help us soon-to-be grads to seek and discover God's will for us after graduation. I really wan to share with u all wat we talked abt today, i think i've been so burdened by all my problems that i didn't realise i've been trying to control my own life too much. Anyway i would share abt that mayb tomoro or something. I shared with my bible study pple today abt the stress my mom is putting me thru..the hurt and anger i'm feeling. I even shared with xiaoying and qingli later after the bible study, and as i shared with them i felt sadder and sadder and i even cried. Aiyoo... After that the 3 of us went to HV starbucks.
Had a pretty great time, wish we could do it more often hee. And amazingly qingli came along after so much persuasion from the 2 of us. She always spoiler ah...don wanna go with us hee.. but today was great man qingli. enjoyed urself ah?? next time come out with us more often lar!
We went home ard 6+...i was tired ( i'm always tired nowadays even though the day has been so damn short...)and hungry and i tot my mom was coming home ard 6+ cos this morning i didn't see her prepare any food in advance for us so i tot she wont b working till 8 today. But gez wat? At 7pm i still don see her and i began to realise she won't b home till 8+. Which means i don haev dinner unless i wanna go fix myself. But i'm so tired......and my anger began to boil again. I was aldy very unhappy with the way my mom has been treating me...now still no dinner?! :( Luckily yicai was on his way home from camp and he dabao a dinner for me back..so sweet of him! I know he had a bad day too..aww.. Anyway i was still pretty unhappy lar...i was thinking that if i complain when my mom comes back i would surely get a scoding from her again.
Then she came home..saw me eating the dabao hor fan, complained abit abt y didn't we go prepare dinner ourselves..still got leftovers in the fridge.. ( precisely it's leftovers and i'm tired i don wanna eat those...) I kept quiet lar. I kept offering my hor fan to her n my bro but both of them doesn't wan it. blah blah blah...I seriously think that my prayers and the bible grp's prayers for my mom really worked. My mom insisted that my bro shd wash the plates today. WAh tat's something damn new...and i overheard her talking to my bro abt sharing hsework with me.. Overjoyed to hear that man. And wat's even more amazing? She even checked out my rabbit when i let the rabbit out of the toilet to run abt. My mom refused to even talk nicely abt the rabbit but just now she even came and stroked the rabbit's fur!!I think she was amazed that the rabbit could even guai guai sat there n let me stroked it. I mentioned abt getting a cage and she mummured some complaints but knowing her so well, her that kind of response onli meant that it would b ok for me to get the cage. It doesn't mean she really agrees to it but she doesn't think she could stop me and she is not stopping me ...ha! I'm gonna get the cage tomoro.
Anyway..in just a day..almost everyting that was going wrong for such a long time went right...must really thank GOd for answering our prayers. :) Overjoyed. Mayb today i would have a great sleep...
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