Tuesday, January 20, 2004 . 12:32 AM
:: Upset with myself::
I feel so useless. I had microbiology lab today and it's quite tough and i was late so i missed the briefing the teaching assistant was giving. I was completely confused lor. And i just feel very anti-social. I don feel like talking to anyone except my indian mauritius fren and khai. And Khai has to keep explaining to me wat's going on etc. I don't know how to interact with the other pple? I donoe how to start a conversation...esp they r talking amongst themselves..i donoe how am i supposed to just cut in and talk to them?? I feel that we are also on different wavelengths man...they are discussing abt the pract and some chim stuffs from the lecture notes but all i wan is to finish the darn pract and go home...who cares abt the lecture notes anyway? I mean who go n read lecture notes one......i never did unless exams are near. See? different attitude and different wavelengths. So i naturally feel pretty inferior when i don seem to understand wat they r talking abt...and then i totally feel like running away from talking to them. Hai...Just dreaded it.
My practical started at 2pm but i was late for 20 mins cos of the heavy downpour today. I was quite wet lor...i didn't bring my brolly.. The stupiest thing was my science bustop which i alighted was connected and has shelter to the next building across the road. But i have to get to another building for my pract and there's no shelter watsoever from the sheltered building to the building i wan!!!?! Wat kind of architecture is this?!! Man how come noone ever complained abt that... While i was on my internal shuttle bus to science fac, the heavy rain was worrying me..cos i knew i would b stuck. And i began to pray to God," pls make the rain smaller...when i reach sci.." And then it seemed almost impossible for that to happen. It didn't happen..then i prayed again, " aiyoo pls give me someone that i know who has a brolly and can shelter me across, or someone kind enuff to ..." ANd gez wat? haha...i was stuck between the sheltered buildling and preparing to run over to building i need to go and get wet while doing that, an old lady asked if i wanna share the brolly with her!!! Oh man..i was so touched!! Thank God haha...:)
Anyway my mom is coming back tomoro, would reach s'pore ard 12pm..she's coming back from Johor's airport actually. And i'm gonna go fetch her with my mom's cousin. Happy she's coming back!!! She could help kill the menacing crockroaches!! So many things...i'm so glad i'm freed from the houseworks!!! U can't imagine the amt of houseworks always waiting for u to settle...housewifes are really something :) But i'm very proud of myself whenever i did any cleanings...cos it's really tough haha. The kitchen always needs cleaning..always dirty..always got lizards run ard at nite and shit all over the place...and u have to clean it up. The sink gets dirty very fast and i have to clean it..the grease stains? I have to take time to wash the cooking area so that it's not oily...the toilets? argh..toilet bowl? Have to wash one..and quite often somemore...the floor gets dirty somehow too.. And the floor of the hse is a big pain..Always hv to vacumm and it's better if it's mopped. Who got the time to always do that? Laundry? another problem...and its the onli thing that my brother helped out in doing..(that's onli cos he doesn't have enuff clothes to wear so he must do the laundry) hai...with my mom coming back tomoro and i've got not much time to clean my hse..i was pretty stressed out. I felt as if the whole world has dumped the hsework for me to do..so many things to do! so little time!! ANd my great bro doesn't help out!!!!!!! u know how that feels like?? go ask ur mom if u wanna know...hahaha...pekchek till i wanna die...I wanna scream at everyone and i wanna bite my bro's head off his neck!!!
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