Thursday, November 27, 2003 . 9:56 PM
~Freedom~
Yeah finally exams over! but very sian leh. Feel damn lost now that i've got the all the time? hmm. Yesterday after the paper, i went orch with Xiaoying. She drove hee. So she drove us down to town and we just shopped ard lar..feels damn gd! I think it's also one of the 1st times we really went shopping together. Really enjoyed ourselves.
Tomoro is Peishan's bday. And she's holding her party at the chalets. My mom wants me to stay home in the noon so that she could go out and do some last min shopping b4 they leave for m'sia on SUNDAY. Yeah...i won't b staying over nite as well. I chatted to bernice a little just now over the icq.Not really chat lor...just leaving msgs for each other like that. She didn't reply me....don't know wat's happening lar.. i feel very tired. tomoro then settle everything. Now that the reality is that my parents are leaving, i'm kinda sad. Although yes i'll have lots n lots of freedom....but think of this scenario ok..think...u went out...play...or went to sch..lots of things happened and u come home and there's NOONE...except the 4 walls...noone no sound no nothing. U get the pic? I recalled wat it was like when they were away those few mths and it's really very very very saddening to come home and home is not warm or anything. Home is just damn cold. No one....don even mention my bro ...he's almost always not home..watever. And wat abt food? breakfast? lunch? dinner? i have to settle myself. I remembered there was once i went over yicai's place and we had dinner at his place...And i told him "woah! the food taste damn gd ...i haven't had homecooked food for mths.." I just dread that i have to settle my own meals.....dread that home would b so cold and too quiet....(actually now it's too noisy..)but well! u get the pic!! It's really very sian one...it feels as if i don belong anywhere i don have family i don have anyting. Now i'm trying to spend more time with them. Don't go out unless neccessary. I dread wat sunday would b like....so cold and quiet. SIAN! treasure ur family lar.....sometimes it's only when u've lost something then u would realise how impt these little things are.
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