Saturday, November 22, 2003 . 7:24 PM
3rd paper..
Finally the 3rd paper is over. I almost went crazy yesterday. The whole day yesterday was HELL. I'm so tensed up so tired and everything but i simply just can't nap leh...i think i suffered anxiety attack of some kind. Really horrible lor. U feel very tired but yet u can't sleep? do u know how shiity it is...and i was a walking zombie and i still have to study...hai. Really glad it's all over. Last paper on wed.
i was at holland V juz now and i went to the market (the small market near 7 eleven)picked 3 white and 3 pink roses and some other decorative flowers..asked the lady to wrapped them up. It's really cheap and it's nice. It's for my mom's belated bday one lar..carry it all the way home (felt quite embarrased...like some guy gave mi flowers like that) And it turned out my mom LOVES it. She was so HAPPY. I was abit shocked. Then i felt it's really worth all these trouble..i'm glad she loves it. I didn't buy her the flowers on her bday cos i had papers to study for. I'm not unfillial k....that's more like my stupid bro....he mesged me today and said mom's bday just passed leh. Can i go get a cake or flowers? HELOO...2 days have passed before YOU the unfillial idiot finally realise that? But not too bad lar..AT LEAST he realised!
look at wat little expectations i have of my bro? tsk.
And hsiaolin ah...i really can't imagine how things would b like when u leave for aust..ANd for 3 yrs somemore! that's really long lor. I've been thinking alot abt u leaving. We've always been together all these yrs from young and now that u're leaving ...really v sad. I just have that impulse to go aust 2 man. I don wanna stay here...but things are not always what we want. SO wat if i wan to leave? i don have the $...and i have to earn $ cos my family needs it! Mayb i'll join u 2 yrs later ..if i have the $ to go over and do a masters. If not i'll go back to NUS. oh man that sounds like shit. I don wanna go back to nus..hai. Then how abt u and karl?( i think i'm spelling his name wrong) How is he taking it? Anyway ur family has the ability to give u wat u wan..it's really lucky of u. Give thanks to God yeah. Hey don be mistaken ..i'm not selfpitying myself now..i'm grateful and contended with how my life is. I think God has blessed me and my family alot even though we're in tis state. He shall choose where i would go since He knows best. Hmm mayb i shd b a housewife and 4get abt damn masters :) Taitai would b gd...gosh i'm blabbering rubbish...
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